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Title: All the Same
Author: rock_mocker
Pairing: its a surprise
Rating: pg at most more like G but o well
Disclaimer: ok so i dont own any of this...the song lyrics/title are from the Sick Puppies- all the same. and its my first time writing something like this so let me know what you think...
Summary: Go ahead tell me you'll leave again You'll just come back running Holding your scarred heart in hand It's all the same And I'll take you for who you are If you take me for everything Do it all over again It's all the same
Special thanks to
fiction_on_fire for doing a bit of betaing (or what ever the correct way of saying that is) and giving me some good ideas of how to make it better.
He stood there in the door way telling me that we can’t, that something is wrong. I wasn’t even paying attention at that point. I have heard it all before. He freaks out and says that "we can’t" and "no it just wouldn’t work." Then he does the only thing he knows how to do when he is put in these situations he runs. I just sat there looking out the window. I knew better. I knew we were meant to be together. I knew no matter what he was saying he would be back. He always came back.
I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly
I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do
I tried talking to him I told him that I didn’t see anything wrong with us or him, that we were meant to be together. I told him I don’t care about anything thing that he has done or the mistakes he has made because honestly I have done some stupid shit. He just looked at me with a hint of a tears swelling up in his eyes. I want us to be together. I can’t keep living like this, with him thinking there is something wrong with us being together. And that it wouldn’t work. Every time I try to talk to him about it he closes himself off, he runs away from the issue and me.
I don't mind...
I don't care…
As long as you're here
He starts to move towards the door. I get up off the couch and grab his wrist and look him in the eyes. I see a tear roll down his cheek. I wipe it away with my finger and whisper into his ear "don’t leave." He looks up at me with his tear filled eyes before turning away quickly. He pulls his wrist away from my grip and reaches for the door. All he says is "I just can't." then he is gone. I don’t understand why he is running from this and me. I know in my heart he feels the same as I do.
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
I know he is afraid. He is afraid of everything about all the ifs and uncertainties. It’s easy to tell. If he isn't I know I am. I'm afraid of what will happen if he really walks out of my life. If this time he leaves for good. I don’t know what I would do without him. My whole life has been about him for so long that I really don’t know what life without him would be like. And I don’t want to know. My life feels complete with him in it. Deep down I know everything will work out, it has to. I know him and I know us. And he will come back.
Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden
And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am
I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long as you're here
It has been a few days and he still hasn’t come back for good. He has been making use of his apartment for the first time in months. I've told him before he should really just move in since he has more of his stuff at my apartment then he does at his own. He did stop by to pick up some of his things after a few days. He probably ran out of clean clothes. He didn’t say much. I didn’t care that he didn’t say much him just being there was enough for me. I have to be around him. Having him gone is the hardest part of this. He is my life, I love him.
Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same
Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
It's all the same
I watch as he walks back out the door after he finishes packing up some of his clothes. I know he will be back. I could see it in his eyes. He is as miserable as me. I know he needs me as much as I need him. I want him to just take a chance for once. He isn't ready yet but he will be and when he is he will be back. I close my eyes at night and dream of him in my arms again. I snuggle with his pillow because it still smells like him. And for a brief moment he is there. But as soon as I wake up the cold spot on his side of the bed reminds me that he is not there.
In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same
Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same
I wake up one morning about week and a half later to a knock on the door. I rush to the door because I know who it is. I open it and there he is. I let out a sigh of relief. He looks up from the floor he has tears in his eyes still. I pull him into the apartment and lead him over to the couch. We sit there and I hold him telling him everything will be fine. He looks up at me and nods his head. I can’t help but smile. The look in his eyes tells me he knows everything will be fine. I lean down and give him a soft kiss and hug him close. Then I hear what I have been waiting to hear. It was very quiet but I still heard it and I knew he was done running.
"I love you Pete"
"I love you too Patrick"