I'm back, and I'm so happy i don't have to go home for the next two months...
So xmas break in Chicago was no worse than going back home usually is.
Well the good things include seeing Eric for the first time in a year and a half, i really forgot how much i miss the guy, getting to run into a couple friends from high school while doing last minute xmas shopping, finally getting a cell phone, getting 2 awesome games for the pc (the last 2 myst games),sharing some guinness with my godfather on new years and most of all home cooked meals made by my mom, she really is a great cook...
The bad stuff was first running into a bully from high school (she can go f*#k herself for all i care), having to deal with my parents attempting to use me to spy on each other (this really made me mad, i dont like being in that position), having another lecture from my mother about how much of a screw-up i am (after which i blew up at her and felt even worse for doing that), but worst of all i felt so incredibly lonely over break, i seriously was craving coming back to school, i missed my friends so much...
Which brings me to my next point in saying that i am truely sorry to any friends that i have hurt and/or wronged in the last year, i've been having some pretty serious mental problems in the last 6 months, and its affecting how i act toward people, such as blowing up at them or insulting them when i never intended to do either. i never want to hurt my friends, they are my family, and i care about them with all my heart...
Anyways i'm back home now, asked Em to get me some booze so i could mellow out for the night. She did lecture me on how i shouldn't drink alone, it shows she really cares abolut me, i swear shes like the big sister that i never had, she just knows me that well. But i've been nursing a tall glass of Captain 'n Coke for about 45 min now and i feel alot more calm and relaxed.
Time for bed, night all
~H~
Well the good things include seeing Eric for the first time in a year and a half, i really forgot how much i miss the guy, getting to run into a couple friends from high school while doing last minute xmas shopping, finally getting a cell phone, getting 2 awesome games for the pc (the last 2 myst games),sharing some guinness with my godfather on new years and most of all home cooked meals made by my mom, she really is a great cook...
The bad stuff was first running into a bully from high school (she can go f*#k herself for all i care), having to deal with my parents attempting to use me to spy on each other (this really made me mad, i dont like being in that position), having another lecture from my mother about how much of a screw-up i am (after which i blew up at her and felt even worse for doing that), but worst of all i felt so incredibly lonely over break, i seriously was craving coming back to school, i missed my friends so much...
Which brings me to my next point in saying that i am truely sorry to any friends that i have hurt and/or wronged in the last year, i've been having some pretty serious mental problems in the last 6 months, and its affecting how i act toward people, such as blowing up at them or insulting them when i never intended to do either. i never want to hurt my friends, they are my family, and i care about them with all my heart...
Anyways i'm back home now, asked Em to get me some booze so i could mellow out for the night. She did lecture me on how i shouldn't drink alone, it shows she really cares abolut me, i swear shes like the big sister that i never had, she just knows me that well. But i've been nursing a tall glass of Captain 'n Coke for about 45 min now and i feel alot more calm and relaxed.
Time for bed, night all
~H~