tempt me, tease me, touch me, please me
anyways...today kinda sucks now. i thought i was gonna be seeing holly later...there was gonna be a party at her house but her mums been a bitch and said she cant have it. so now my mums gonna get all pissed at me for changed my plans AGAIN, and im gonna have to tell dad that im gonna be here tomoro not at hollys. so this looks like its gonna be a great new years. ill be doing what i did last year. sitting on msn talking to people. i remember last new year...i was talking to annon *smiles slightly*.
next year...what to expect. well i can tell you one thing; if its anything like this year then i dont see the point in living through it all. just to keep getting hurt over and over. one good thing may come along, but theres always more bad things. i have people who help me without realising it...people who make things worse without realising it. then i have people who try to help and fail and people who make things worse on purpose. this year has been good for me to discover myself...make new friends...decide which people i can really trust and which people i cant. this year has been a year of pain, hurt and suffering...but there have also been a few good things -
- holly
- march 28th...
- certain other people/new friends -> harry, debs, beth, car, annon, sarah, rabby, ema, quel, kay --- thank you, all of you, for all the help and laughs youve given me this year (corny i know, but what you gonna do?)
- concerts - mest, r.h.c.p., wednesday 13, blink, darkness
and next year, so far i can only think of three things to look forward to -
- green day concert
- simple plan concert
- seeing lucy and roz again for the first time in ages
hmm...so its mainly concerts...my life revolves around music, it really does. my music can change my mood...so perhaps right now i should be listening to something a little less depressing...oh well.
new medicines can ease this pain, theyre the only ailment for it, all over again
ok, im gonna shut up now, after my little messages -
harry - gc grew up your ass
debs - theres a reason why certain people meet
beth - MARRY ME!
car - i want that one. thats a snake. ya'no
annon - theyre going to go to fairy land and matty the fairy queen!
sarah - dont be scared...=)
rabby - ^____^
ema - drunk people own!
quel - *pokes you with a stick*
kay - oh, what, so now im spose to be all dead?
<3
next year...what to expect. well i can tell you one thing; if its anything like this year then i dont see the point in living through it all. just to keep getting hurt over and over. one good thing may come along, but theres always more bad things. i have people who help me without realising it...people who make things worse without realising it. then i have people who try to help and fail and people who make things worse on purpose. this year has been good for me to discover myself...make new friends...decide which people i can really trust and which people i cant. this year has been a year of pain, hurt and suffering...but there have also been a few good things -
- holly
- march 28th...
- certain other people/new friends -> harry, debs, beth, car, annon, sarah, rabby, ema, quel, kay --- thank you, all of you, for all the help and laughs youve given me this year (corny i know, but what you gonna do?)
- concerts - mest, r.h.c.p., wednesday 13, blink, darkness
and next year, so far i can only think of three things to look forward to -
- green day concert
- simple plan concert
- seeing lucy and roz again for the first time in ages
hmm...so its mainly concerts...my life revolves around music, it really does. my music can change my mood...so perhaps right now i should be listening to something a little less depressing...oh well.
new medicines can ease this pain, theyre the only ailment for it, all over again
ok, im gonna shut up now, after my little messages -
harry - gc grew up your ass
debs - theres a reason why certain people meet
beth - MARRY ME!
car - i want that one. thats a snake. ya'no
annon - theyre going to go to fairy land and matty the fairy queen!
sarah - dont be scared...=)
rabby - ^____^
ema - drunk people own!
quel - *pokes you with a stick*
kay - oh, what, so now im spose to be all dead?
<3