Getting down to the wire now...
Getting painfully close now...
Well it's getting down to the wire for me to leave. Approx 4 days and 2 hrs from now I'll be getting on a bus then going to an Air Force base to fly out to Iraq. I've been so excited about going, but as it draws more near I am less and less wanting to go. I really just want to get it done with so I can come back and not have to be without Kayla. I miss her so much right now and it really hurts. I know it will be hard for her as well and I try to make it as painless as I can for her and be the strong one, but I wonder if I am really helping or just making it worse and giving her the wrong impression? I love her more than anything and she is quite literally my reason for living. I fear so much that now that I have a reason to live, and goals in my life that I may never be able to fullfil them. I want more than anything to just fast-forward to when her and I are raising our family in our house in Alabama. That's 3 years away though and with many obstacles between them. More than likely too, this will not be my only deployment, I may have one or two more. At least she will be here with me when I come back and then the only times apart will be if I am deployed again. It will make it easier having her here, but that is still 7-8 months away. I am told the time will fly by for me over there, and I hope it does, but I feel so bad for Kayla since I know it won't for her back in the states. I am very thankful for every precious second I was able to spend with her before leaving though, and it has also made me appreciate all I have in my life, especially her. I will continue to pray for and look to the day I am with her forever.
I have an address finally but did not bring it with me so I will post it tomorrow. Until then good night all.
Well it's getting down to the wire for me to leave. Approx 4 days and 2 hrs from now I'll be getting on a bus then going to an Air Force base to fly out to Iraq. I've been so excited about going, but as it draws more near I am less and less wanting to go. I really just want to get it done with so I can come back and not have to be without Kayla. I miss her so much right now and it really hurts. I know it will be hard for her as well and I try to make it as painless as I can for her and be the strong one, but I wonder if I am really helping or just making it worse and giving her the wrong impression? I love her more than anything and she is quite literally my reason for living. I fear so much that now that I have a reason to live, and goals in my life that I may never be able to fullfil them. I want more than anything to just fast-forward to when her and I are raising our family in our house in Alabama. That's 3 years away though and with many obstacles between them. More than likely too, this will not be my only deployment, I may have one or two more. At least she will be here with me when I come back and then the only times apart will be if I am deployed again. It will make it easier having her here, but that is still 7-8 months away. I am told the time will fly by for me over there, and I hope it does, but I feel so bad for Kayla since I know it won't for her back in the states. I am very thankful for every precious second I was able to spend with her before leaving though, and it has also made me appreciate all I have in my life, especially her. I will continue to pray for and look to the day I am with her forever.
I have an address finally but did not bring it with me so I will post it tomorrow. Until then good night all.