all duh
I came in late to school yesterday and later found out that John was there earlier. This got me really upset because I never get to see John. Later on I got to see him at the mall and was oober happy. Turns out he was in a bad mood so pretty much treated me like shit. I attempted to make him feel better but he just ignored me. After about five minutes of this I started to get upset myself so I walked away.
In my creative writing class my teacher informs me that her and another teacher of mine are "worried" about me. She goes on to tell me that there always appears to be something wrong with my eyes. I started getting defensive and blurted out "I don't do drugs in school!"...not realizing at the moment what would be insinuated. She then goes to me "Why do you do drugs out of school?" so I denied that of course. She then went on to tell me that I was half naked and should put my sweater on. So basically my teacher called me a drug addict and a slut. Also, my school was leaking and had three or four areas closed off due to all of the water. On top of that...the auditorium was flooded causing stage crew to be canceled.
Johnny's home now. My mom forgot to dry her clothes so mine didn't get dried either so I stayed home from school. This is really bad because there are multiple things I had to do.
-Get yelled at/get punished
-I had gym, and I have a partner. He's a dick, but I kind of feel bad.
-Get some pot for Jesse and I.
-Stage crew.
-See Justin after stage crew.
-And of course Laura will just freak out because I wasn't there for one day.
So I'm going to have to deal with a bit of shit on Friday.
Last night I IMed Lauren and I was just starting up the conversation and she's like "Honestly Sam, if this is going nowhere I'd rather end it right now, so if you'd excuse me, I have some bleeding to do". I'm expected to drop my good mood and deal with her stupid overly-dramatic shit. I felt a tad bit bad for throwing up my away message after she said that, but I don't deal with my friends when they just want sympathy and attention. I'm a horrible person? Oh well.
This weekend I went camping in Salem with Tiki, Lauren, and Anna for Lauren's Sweet 16. Even though it rained the entire weekend it was gorgeous. We visited some haunted places and almost went into a haunted house near the camp site, but we kind of chickened out. A kind of bad experience from this was that all of them must have believed that they had the ability to sing, my ears suffered a great deal. Also, being that all of my friends feel the need to always be dramatic Lauren ended up throwing three little tantrums. We saw only two cute guys they entire time, but it's ok.
I'm still searching for a boyfriend.
Today I stayed after school for math extra help, but when I went to go there from the corner I had two security guards stop me and say I couldn't go back on and I had to walk home. Of course this wasn't happening so me and Brit O'connor walked through the sump. Everything was good until one of the security guards spotted me and said that they were telling Moran (my grade's principal). So that's going to be fun to get into trouble tomorrow. I went so far without doing anything wrong and now I'm going to get busted for something so petty, stupid high school.
Justin was talking to Brittany today so I screamed at him not to do so, right in front of her. Later on she had shown up at the corner, clearly trying to show she wasn't afraid of me. Justin had invited her to smoke pot with them. Before the buses came I told Justin I wasn't talking to him anymore. I played it off as a joke, but he could tell I was angry. Then I had like five people asking why I hated Brittany and she was only a few feet away so I was just like, "hush, hush" because this was only a few minutes after getting in trouble for sneaking back on school property so I didn't want a fight to break out and get me in worse trouble.
On the bus I had a group of guys having a conversation about my body. Dorks.
Hah. I'm high right now, I just want to type and look back when I'm sober to see if I say anything mildly amusing to myself. Did that make sense? hah oh well. Um tonight I smoked a 20 bag I think with Justin in Eric..and...too lazy to re-type. God, I'm bored oft his already, alright then...latyersss
The whole weekend was pretty much a giant waste the only thing that made me happy was getting this adorable pink plaid skirt with fishnets and junk. I must post pictures, I plan on wearing it tomorrow.
Story time, kinda.
I get into my Mom's car to go shopping and see something with sharp pointy edges sticking out from under the seat which almost stabbed my leg. I pull it out and it turn out to be a huge ass blade. Atleast 12 inches I think, I can't really describe it, hopefully I can get a picture of it. This is the closest thing I found.
It looks a lot scary then that. Anyways, my Mom was like "What the fuck?". We then came to the conclusion that it was Bob's (step-dad). Considering that he is psychotic we think he's planning on killing me Mom since he's always accusing her of cheating on him. So yeah, not so fun. We hid it in the back of the car and we're not going to ask him about it.
I had a thing that by the end of the week I had to kick Eric in the balls. When I finally did he cursed me out and said he wasn't speaking to me anymore. He yelled really loud so I was shaking like crazy. I actually went to go apologize, after him calling me a cunt and a bitch. He acted as if I wasn't there. So, I kind of got really depressed and Tim saw it on my face, I got really close to crying in front of him. The entire scenario keeps replaying in my head causing me to be even more upset. I went to the mall later on, sober, which didn't help the situation, but I did my best to not think about it and flashback. I later on saw John which was really nice minus him getting insanely jealous due to all of my guy friends touching me, atleast in doing so it makes me aware that he still cares about me. I might be hanging out with him on Sunday, we're currently just friends which I'm totally fine with.
your eyes
september 26th,2005
when i look in your eyes,
you amaze me,
every single time,
theres something new,
somethingjust out of reach,
and i wish to see,
wat lies just beneath,
there's innocence still clearly shown,
something i've never known,
not perfect,
not wrong,
something just right,
and in this world thats hard to find,
when you walk next to me,
my heart skips beat,
i watch the clock,
until i see you again,
and between now and then,
it's hard to breath,
its hard to see,
and i never thought this could be,
i wish to hold you close,
see all you have to bare,
i wish i could speak these words,
but i don't dare,
after all i think my eyes tell all.
I'm sick. Tracy has informed me that Eric says that he is "in love" with me which I find quite humorous.I'm kind of tormenting him by being oober sweet and junk and not going out with him. I'm aware this is a mind game and I'm totally against them, but he kind of deserves it. I stayed home today and everyone was dying without me, especially Laura. 'Oh my gosh Sam's not here, the world is over.' What would happend if I just died, where would all of my friends lives go, honestly. Maybe there's someway implant a back bone into them, geez.
Everyone's on my case about drugs and alcohol. I might begin to take the same approach with my friends as I do with my parents and lie to them. Hide it from them and make sure they don't find out. Frankly I'm sick of hearing how much I'm hurting myself. I smoked blueberry haze yesterday. I got nicely high and got chased by a group of drunken men with broken beer bottles. I'm glad I was high otherwise I might have pissed my pants. There was a carnival, the lights were entertaining. I then returned home later on to go shopping with my mom, everything is a bit sketchy, but I do believe I was still high when I was with her and she didn't notice at all. I'm not a pothead, I don't drink and do drugs to forget about my life. If I wasn't being judged for 1 minute about every single thing that I do it would be a miracle. My theory is, that if the people that bother me about doing the things I do tried them, they'd shut the fuck up and see how fun it is.
All of my thoughts and emotions clashed today forcing me to turn into sad Sam. Everyone noticed and it sucked, and of course you never leave the sad kid alone, even when they tell you to. Idiots. By 5th period I was fine and all happy again. Like a fucking puppet, it's like I'm not even allowed to be upset. I always have to be cherry and hyper. After school I went off to the corner and see a group of about 30 kids walking down the street saying there's going to be a fight, I followed. Before the first punch was thrown we had three security guards and the 11th grade assistant principal. They told us we all weren't allowed back on school grounds so Tracy, Mike, Justin, Eric, Mitch and I walked around the block, taking a break half way so Eric, Tracy and Justin could smoke pot. I didn't want to smoke any b.c Mr.Brodsky and the rest of the staff was going crazy trying to block all the kids off from the school, didn't want to take any chances. We finally got back to the school and see these two kids about to fight in the front, we just walked by to not get in trouble. A little while after that Laura has Scott calling her telling her this kid's going to kick the shit out of him when he gets off of the Boce's bus. We told Mr.Brodsky to save Scott's ass and supposedly they called the cops about something else, not sure. There were also like two other fights I believe. Twas a quite controversial day.
I decided today that I wasn't going to act like everyone's mother, so I announced that I wasn't going to care about anything anymore. Eric at first was ecstatic but as the day progressed he even told me that it was bothering him that I didn't care. In one of my classes this girl I talk to a little bit wrote this free writing thing, it really upset me. She went through a lot of rape, drugs, stds, abuse and might have aids. The entire world sickens me, when will all of the stupid people die? After school I was walking back from having a cigarette at the corner when I saw two security guards pass a bird, like 2 feet away from it and it didn't move. I decided to go see if it would move if I went near it, which it didn't. I sat there for about five minutes before Mike and Eric came over and asked me what the fuck I was doing. Mike pet it, then this girl came over and picked it up. It has a bracelet so we brought it inside to the school, a teacher put it in a box and said she'd find were it belonged. Later on I drenched myself in water and beat Laura around a bit. I'd say it was a fairly interesting day.
The sky was gorgeous this morning. I smoked pot after school. Mike asked me out and I turned him down. Still looking for a girlfriend and it wouldn't hurt to have some vodka too. Apparently being a virgin at this age is an imperfection, and we simply can't stand for that.
Goals for this year
Get atleast one new piercing
Join stage crew
Have my Sweet 16 hotel party
Beat up Brittany
Lose virginity
Get Zach to like me
Will add more
Planned on going to the movies with Laura, Eric and Luke yesterday to see 'The Exorcism of Emily Rose', it was alright, not really scary. Eric and Luke didn't show up so Laura was freaking out because "Like oh my God, they were suppose to be there!" Turns out, they were waiting for us outside the movie theater for 2 hours because they didn't have money to get in, the intelligence astounds me. Laura left 2 minutes after running into them, so sucks for her. I on the other hand stuck around for another hour and a half to make sure they didn't kill themselves and beat the shit out of them. They discovered this thing in the woods where thick fence wire went from a tree up a hill to another tree at the bottom of the hill and had bike handles on it so you ride down. This almost gave me a heart attack because you have to stop yourself before you hit the tree at the bottom. We then went on to cracking bottles, all in all, it was an alright day.
I'm getting too close to Eric, it's hard not to. When I'm around him it's hard to grasp the reality of the situation and the past. I smoked weed with them yesterday, bad Sam, I know. All I really want is to to find a nice girlfriend. We had a guest speaker in child development yesterday and she pretty much explained that her life is fucked up due to the birth of her deaf son. It made me physically sick that her and the teacher spoke about the child as if it was some kind of disease or something and then, after all that, the lady got pregnant again. The message was suppose to be abstinence, all I got out of it was that the lady was a stupid whore. In this 45 minute lecture the word 'condom' was mentioned once. Also, our teacher wants us to sign some sort of abstinence contract. I'd fight this, but seeing as this is an easy elective and the teacher likes me, I'm not going to.
I'm not too sure of what happend to me yesterday because I drank so much that I got close to having alcohol poisoning, I threw up a lot, I found out Rich had a crush on me, I almost grabbed some random girls ass, found out Eric cheated on me because Luke told him I was going to break up with him...bastard, supposedly I had a bunch of guys hitting on me and touching me. I ran into some and was all "Holy shit! I actually remember you!" I ripped my brand new pants which kind of pissed me off, but yeah. I hung out with Meg and Taylor today and had fun, ran into some random kids who after talking to us for about 5 minutes, invite us to some weed smoking party, faggots.
I started school, it's pretty good so far.( I dyed my hair. ) The usual ignorance surrounds me, but I simply give dirty looks back at them and smile when they're gone. Their are some friends in my classes, I saw Laura yesterday and kind of stopped breathing for a second then walked away and laughed my ass off. I dressed like a skank yesterday, big time, I looked oober cute though, lots of fishnet. Justin came up from college to call me a slut and tell me I give away free sex. It was nice to see him. There was this preppy kid in my English class who kept staring at me so I almost lodged my pink pen into his head, maybe I just looked like a prep.. ::cringes:: I wore the cutest skirt ever today with no shoes, just pretty bright colored socks and a lingerie top, I looked good enough to fuck, I swear. More dirty looks and guys hitting on me. Then a sweaty bus ride home.
Haven't been home in a while so I have a bit to update with. Friday Meg and I went to the mall and met up with all of the greasy mall rats. Me and Jesse drank and exchanged hickeys. I was accused of moaning while receiving mine, but I don't recall such happening.I ran into a lot of people I knew and I'm pretty sure I was hitting on a lot of girls, oh well. I slept over Megan's then we spent the whole day at the mall and got a nice big scare, we almost got caught for shop lifting. Our plans to take the bus home got screwed up, our bus didn't come. Prior to finding this out we watched a drunken man moan, spit and piss. It was quite scary for the both of us thinking that he may come onto our bus. He didn't, we then ended up staying until 0:30 and I slept over her house again. I left around 12ish went to the mall with my Mom, she wanted to get some perfume from abercrombie and fitch and this dude was greeting people at the door with no shirt on. Me and my Mom both got pretty pissed off about it so we walked out. I later on convinced her to go back in because I knew how much she wanted it. I was going to steal it to kind of...protest, but she said not to. I'm glad I didn't, they had one of the metal bar things on the inside of the box. I got some cute which includes a purple Hello Kitty bag, the only problem is she's a cheerleader which is kind of annoying, but she is Hello Kitty and can do whatever she wants so I made an exception. I ran into some relatives and we ate a lot. I decided to go on a little bit of a diet because my stomach looks like I'm pregnant. At Walmart me and my Mom found one of the cutest kids we both had ever seen, she was lost (no surprise) she was a mix between black, spanish and oriental and quite the dirty kid, but still so cute. She wouldn't speak, but she didn't seem upset at all, it was about 15 minutes before her mother came up to customer service and got her daughter. She then just thanked my mom as if it was no big deal. At the end of the whole thing my stomach was in knots. Society sickens me.
In my creative writing class my teacher informs me that her and another teacher of mine are "worried" about me. She goes on to tell me that there always appears to be something wrong with my eyes. I started getting defensive and blurted out "I don't do drugs in school!"...not realizing at the moment what would be insinuated. She then goes to me "Why do you do drugs out of school?" so I denied that of course. She then went on to tell me that I was half naked and should put my sweater on. So basically my teacher called me a drug addict and a slut. Also, my school was leaking and had three or four areas closed off due to all of the water. On top of that...the auditorium was flooded causing stage crew to be canceled.
Johnny's home now. My mom forgot to dry her clothes so mine didn't get dried either so I stayed home from school. This is really bad because there are multiple things I had to do.
-Get yelled at/get punished
-I had gym, and I have a partner. He's a dick, but I kind of feel bad.
-Get some pot for Jesse and I.
-Stage crew.
-See Justin after stage crew.
-And of course Laura will just freak out because I wasn't there for one day.
So I'm going to have to deal with a bit of shit on Friday.
Last night I IMed Lauren and I was just starting up the conversation and she's like "Honestly Sam, if this is going nowhere I'd rather end it right now, so if you'd excuse me, I have some bleeding to do". I'm expected to drop my good mood and deal with her stupid overly-dramatic shit. I felt a tad bit bad for throwing up my away message after she said that, but I don't deal with my friends when they just want sympathy and attention. I'm a horrible person? Oh well.
This weekend I went camping in Salem with Tiki, Lauren, and Anna for Lauren's Sweet 16. Even though it rained the entire weekend it was gorgeous. We visited some haunted places and almost went into a haunted house near the camp site, but we kind of chickened out. A kind of bad experience from this was that all of them must have believed that they had the ability to sing, my ears suffered a great deal. Also, being that all of my friends feel the need to always be dramatic Lauren ended up throwing three little tantrums. We saw only two cute guys they entire time, but it's ok.
I'm still searching for a boyfriend.
Today I stayed after school for math extra help, but when I went to go there from the corner I had two security guards stop me and say I couldn't go back on and I had to walk home. Of course this wasn't happening so me and Brit O'connor walked through the sump. Everything was good until one of the security guards spotted me and said that they were telling Moran (my grade's principal). So that's going to be fun to get into trouble tomorrow. I went so far without doing anything wrong and now I'm going to get busted for something so petty, stupid high school.
Justin was talking to Brittany today so I screamed at him not to do so, right in front of her. Later on she had shown up at the corner, clearly trying to show she wasn't afraid of me. Justin had invited her to smoke pot with them. Before the buses came I told Justin I wasn't talking to him anymore. I played it off as a joke, but he could tell I was angry. Then I had like five people asking why I hated Brittany and she was only a few feet away so I was just like, "hush, hush" because this was only a few minutes after getting in trouble for sneaking back on school property so I didn't want a fight to break out and get me in worse trouble.
On the bus I had a group of guys having a conversation about my body. Dorks.
Hah. I'm high right now, I just want to type and look back when I'm sober to see if I say anything mildly amusing to myself. Did that make sense? hah oh well. Um tonight I smoked a 20 bag I think with Justin in Eric..and...too lazy to re-type. God, I'm bored oft his already, alright then...latyersss
The whole weekend was pretty much a giant waste the only thing that made me happy was getting this adorable pink plaid skirt with fishnets and junk. I must post pictures, I plan on wearing it tomorrow.
Story time, kinda.
I get into my Mom's car to go shopping and see something with sharp pointy edges sticking out from under the seat which almost stabbed my leg. I pull it out and it turn out to be a huge ass blade. Atleast 12 inches I think, I can't really describe it, hopefully I can get a picture of it. This is the closest thing I found.
It looks a lot scary then that. Anyways, my Mom was like "What the fuck?". We then came to the conclusion that it was Bob's (step-dad). Considering that he is psychotic we think he's planning on killing me Mom since he's always accusing her of cheating on him. So yeah, not so fun. We hid it in the back of the car and we're not going to ask him about it.
I had a thing that by the end of the week I had to kick Eric in the balls. When I finally did he cursed me out and said he wasn't speaking to me anymore. He yelled really loud so I was shaking like crazy. I actually went to go apologize, after him calling me a cunt and a bitch. He acted as if I wasn't there. So, I kind of got really depressed and Tim saw it on my face, I got really close to crying in front of him. The entire scenario keeps replaying in my head causing me to be even more upset. I went to the mall later on, sober, which didn't help the situation, but I did my best to not think about it and flashback. I later on saw John which was really nice minus him getting insanely jealous due to all of my guy friends touching me, atleast in doing so it makes me aware that he still cares about me. I might be hanging out with him on Sunday, we're currently just friends which I'm totally fine with.
your eyes
september 26th,2005
when i look in your eyes,
you amaze me,
every single time,
theres something new,
somethingjust out of reach,
and i wish to see,
wat lies just beneath,
there's innocence still clearly shown,
something i've never known,
not perfect,
not wrong,
something just right,
and in this world thats hard to find,
when you walk next to me,
my heart skips beat,
i watch the clock,
until i see you again,
and between now and then,
it's hard to breath,
its hard to see,
and i never thought this could be,
i wish to hold you close,
see all you have to bare,
i wish i could speak these words,
but i don't dare,
after all i think my eyes tell all.
I'm sick. Tracy has informed me that Eric says that he is "in love" with me which I find quite humorous.I'm kind of tormenting him by being oober sweet and junk and not going out with him. I'm aware this is a mind game and I'm totally against them, but he kind of deserves it. I stayed home today and everyone was dying without me, especially Laura. 'Oh my gosh Sam's not here, the world is over.' What would happend if I just died, where would all of my friends lives go, honestly. Maybe there's someway implant a back bone into them, geez.
Everyone's on my case about drugs and alcohol. I might begin to take the same approach with my friends as I do with my parents and lie to them. Hide it from them and make sure they don't find out. Frankly I'm sick of hearing how much I'm hurting myself. I smoked blueberry haze yesterday. I got nicely high and got chased by a group of drunken men with broken beer bottles. I'm glad I was high otherwise I might have pissed my pants. There was a carnival, the lights were entertaining. I then returned home later on to go shopping with my mom, everything is a bit sketchy, but I do believe I was still high when I was with her and she didn't notice at all. I'm not a pothead, I don't drink and do drugs to forget about my life. If I wasn't being judged for 1 minute about every single thing that I do it would be a miracle. My theory is, that if the people that bother me about doing the things I do tried them, they'd shut the fuck up and see how fun it is.
All of my thoughts and emotions clashed today forcing me to turn into sad Sam. Everyone noticed and it sucked, and of course you never leave the sad kid alone, even when they tell you to. Idiots. By 5th period I was fine and all happy again. Like a fucking puppet, it's like I'm not even allowed to be upset. I always have to be cherry and hyper. After school I went off to the corner and see a group of about 30 kids walking down the street saying there's going to be a fight, I followed. Before the first punch was thrown we had three security guards and the 11th grade assistant principal. They told us we all weren't allowed back on school grounds so Tracy, Mike, Justin, Eric, Mitch and I walked around the block, taking a break half way so Eric, Tracy and Justin could smoke pot. I didn't want to smoke any b.c Mr.Brodsky and the rest of the staff was going crazy trying to block all the kids off from the school, didn't want to take any chances. We finally got back to the school and see these two kids about to fight in the front, we just walked by to not get in trouble. A little while after that Laura has Scott calling her telling her this kid's going to kick the shit out of him when he gets off of the Boce's bus. We told Mr.Brodsky to save Scott's ass and supposedly they called the cops about something else, not sure. There were also like two other fights I believe. Twas a quite controversial day.
I decided today that I wasn't going to act like everyone's mother, so I announced that I wasn't going to care about anything anymore. Eric at first was ecstatic but as the day progressed he even told me that it was bothering him that I didn't care. In one of my classes this girl I talk to a little bit wrote this free writing thing, it really upset me. She went through a lot of rape, drugs, stds, abuse and might have aids. The entire world sickens me, when will all of the stupid people die? After school I was walking back from having a cigarette at the corner when I saw two security guards pass a bird, like 2 feet away from it and it didn't move. I decided to go see if it would move if I went near it, which it didn't. I sat there for about five minutes before Mike and Eric came over and asked me what the fuck I was doing. Mike pet it, then this girl came over and picked it up. It has a bracelet so we brought it inside to the school, a teacher put it in a box and said she'd find were it belonged. Later on I drenched myself in water and beat Laura around a bit. I'd say it was a fairly interesting day.
The sky was gorgeous this morning. I smoked pot after school. Mike asked me out and I turned him down. Still looking for a girlfriend and it wouldn't hurt to have some vodka too. Apparently being a virgin at this age is an imperfection, and we simply can't stand for that.
Goals for this year
Get atleast one new piercing
Join stage crew
Have my Sweet 16 hotel party
Beat up Brittany
Lose virginity
Get Zach to like me
Will add more
Planned on going to the movies with Laura, Eric and Luke yesterday to see 'The Exorcism of Emily Rose', it was alright, not really scary. Eric and Luke didn't show up so Laura was freaking out because "Like oh my God, they were suppose to be there!" Turns out, they were waiting for us outside the movie theater for 2 hours because they didn't have money to get in, the intelligence astounds me. Laura left 2 minutes after running into them, so sucks for her. I on the other hand stuck around for another hour and a half to make sure they didn't kill themselves and beat the shit out of them. They discovered this thing in the woods where thick fence wire went from a tree up a hill to another tree at the bottom of the hill and had bike handles on it so you ride down. This almost gave me a heart attack because you have to stop yourself before you hit the tree at the bottom. We then went on to cracking bottles, all in all, it was an alright day.
I'm getting too close to Eric, it's hard not to. When I'm around him it's hard to grasp the reality of the situation and the past. I smoked weed with them yesterday, bad Sam, I know. All I really want is to to find a nice girlfriend. We had a guest speaker in child development yesterday and she pretty much explained that her life is fucked up due to the birth of her deaf son. It made me physically sick that her and the teacher spoke about the child as if it was some kind of disease or something and then, after all that, the lady got pregnant again. The message was suppose to be abstinence, all I got out of it was that the lady was a stupid whore. In this 45 minute lecture the word 'condom' was mentioned once. Also, our teacher wants us to sign some sort of abstinence contract. I'd fight this, but seeing as this is an easy elective and the teacher likes me, I'm not going to.
I'm not too sure of what happend to me yesterday because I drank so much that I got close to having alcohol poisoning, I threw up a lot, I found out Rich had a crush on me, I almost grabbed some random girls ass, found out Eric cheated on me because Luke told him I was going to break up with him...bastard, supposedly I had a bunch of guys hitting on me and touching me. I ran into some and was all "Holy shit! I actually remember you!" I ripped my brand new pants which kind of pissed me off, but yeah. I hung out with Meg and Taylor today and had fun, ran into some random kids who after talking to us for about 5 minutes, invite us to some weed smoking party, faggots.
I started school, it's pretty good so far.( I dyed my hair. ) The usual ignorance surrounds me, but I simply give dirty looks back at them and smile when they're gone. Their are some friends in my classes, I saw Laura yesterday and kind of stopped breathing for a second then walked away and laughed my ass off. I dressed like a skank yesterday, big time, I looked oober cute though, lots of fishnet. Justin came up from college to call me a slut and tell me I give away free sex. It was nice to see him. There was this preppy kid in my English class who kept staring at me so I almost lodged my pink pen into his head, maybe I just looked like a prep.. ::cringes:: I wore the cutest skirt ever today with no shoes, just pretty bright colored socks and a lingerie top, I looked good enough to fuck, I swear. More dirty looks and guys hitting on me. Then a sweaty bus ride home.
Haven't been home in a while so I have a bit to update with. Friday Meg and I went to the mall and met up with all of the greasy mall rats. Me and Jesse drank and exchanged hickeys. I was accused of moaning while receiving mine, but I don't recall such happening.I ran into a lot of people I knew and I'm pretty sure I was hitting on a lot of girls, oh well. I slept over Megan's then we spent the whole day at the mall and got a nice big scare, we almost got caught for shop lifting. Our plans to take the bus home got screwed up, our bus didn't come. Prior to finding this out we watched a drunken man moan, spit and piss. It was quite scary for the both of us thinking that he may come onto our bus. He didn't, we then ended up staying until 0:30 and I slept over her house again. I left around 12ish went to the mall with my Mom, she wanted to get some perfume from abercrombie and fitch and this dude was greeting people at the door with no shirt on. Me and my Mom both got pretty pissed off about it so we walked out. I later on convinced her to go back in because I knew how much she wanted it. I was going to steal it to kind of...protest, but she said not to. I'm glad I didn't, they had one of the metal bar things on the inside of the box. I got some cute which includes a purple Hello Kitty bag, the only problem is she's a cheerleader which is kind of annoying, but she is Hello Kitty and can do whatever she wants so I made an exception. I ran into some relatives and we ate a lot. I decided to go on a little bit of a diet because my stomach looks like I'm pregnant. At Walmart me and my Mom found one of the cutest kids we both had ever seen, she was lost (no surprise) she was a mix between black, spanish and oriental and quite the dirty kid, but still so cute. She wouldn't speak, but she didn't seem upset at all, it was about 15 minutes before her mother came up to customer service and got her daughter. She then just thanked my mom as if it was no big deal. At the end of the whole thing my stomach was in knots. Society sickens me.