About me
So I am going to be posting a little bit of T.M.I. but for the purposes’ of me getting it out of my head… you get to read about it.
Last Friday evening my honey and I were at a friend’s house. There was a woman I had talked to earlier in the day that said I could be her domme that night… I knew before going that I was going to share being the domme with the other people there at the party.
During the course of the evening there was food and other things going on like a wax play scene. After the wax play I took over for my scene. Well here’s where things get interesting… and I don’t mean in a good way. I know already about myself that I have very different personality traits; My everyday normal, My submissive Head Space, and also My Domme Head Space.
~For the rest of this I am going to refer to My inner Domme in the third person perspective~
(no I am not crazy…. As far as I can tell…. Its just easier to quantify right now)
She decided to come out and play. There was no warning, no change in my outer appearance, however my brain took on a whole new change. I have been in a Domme space before but never had this epiphany. I felt as though my other 2 sides were hit with a Mac Truck, went screaming to a corner, were trying to reason with Her and we ignored.
I started to play with my “toy” cause that’s what she was at the time. I was using rope to place her so she could be tickled by the other patrons there. During Her using rope to tie up Her toy 2 of the other Doms could no longer wait and had to “rescue” me fore I am not that experienced with rope bondage. They did not ask to help, they also did not back off after helping. So She got rather irritated and left the room because Her toy was taken away.
She was not able to say in a nice way for the men to back off…. She was not able to be rational either.
After She mellowed She retreated and I was finally able to control the reigns again.
I noticed about myself my inner Domme is a Selfish Bitch and does not currently play well with others. Every time she has surfaced her “toy” has gotten taken from her. So in the course of things I am going to back off from topping, and try to find what trigger my inner Domme head space to come out. I am going to try to while in my Domme head space be nicer and try to figure out how to be able to play with others.
Nobody else there really knew what was going on with me including myself. So I am very sorry if I caused drama or anything else for the rest of the group. I was unaware I was going to go into my Domme space. I will try to be better in the future.
This is going to be a new learning experience about myself and a growing experience.
(cross posted in my other journal)
p.s. I am screening comments... I think.... I've pulled down the bar so hopefully it works. sorry if it does not.
Last Friday evening my honey and I were at a friend’s house. There was a woman I had talked to earlier in the day that said I could be her domme that night… I knew before going that I was going to share being the domme with the other people there at the party.
During the course of the evening there was food and other things going on like a wax play scene. After the wax play I took over for my scene. Well here’s where things get interesting… and I don’t mean in a good way. I know already about myself that I have very different personality traits; My everyday normal, My submissive Head Space, and also My Domme Head Space.
~For the rest of this I am going to refer to My inner Domme in the third person perspective~
(no I am not crazy…. As far as I can tell…. Its just easier to quantify right now)
She decided to come out and play. There was no warning, no change in my outer appearance, however my brain took on a whole new change. I have been in a Domme space before but never had this epiphany. I felt as though my other 2 sides were hit with a Mac Truck, went screaming to a corner, were trying to reason with Her and we ignored.
I started to play with my “toy” cause that’s what she was at the time. I was using rope to place her so she could be tickled by the other patrons there. During Her using rope to tie up Her toy 2 of the other Doms could no longer wait and had to “rescue” me fore I am not that experienced with rope bondage. They did not ask to help, they also did not back off after helping. So She got rather irritated and left the room because Her toy was taken away.
She was not able to say in a nice way for the men to back off…. She was not able to be rational either.
After She mellowed She retreated and I was finally able to control the reigns again.
I noticed about myself my inner Domme is a Selfish Bitch and does not currently play well with others. Every time she has surfaced her “toy” has gotten taken from her. So in the course of things I am going to back off from topping, and try to find what trigger my inner Domme head space to come out. I am going to try to while in my Domme head space be nicer and try to figure out how to be able to play with others.
Nobody else there really knew what was going on with me including myself. So I am very sorry if I caused drama or anything else for the rest of the group. I was unaware I was going to go into my Domme space. I will try to be better in the future.
This is going to be a new learning experience about myself and a growing experience.
(cross posted in my other journal)
p.s. I am screening comments... I think.... I've pulled down the bar so hopefully it works. sorry if it does not.