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i guess what really hurts me the most is the fact that i try to be civil about our current situation, like just being nice. it doesnt help. i told him, lets just forget about our past, and work on the future. nothing is going to get resolved by arguing and continuing the never ending circle of confrontation.
i have SUCH a good thing in my life, he is perfect for me, but i cant open my eyes and appreicate it.
i catch myself acting like Ruben, being an ass to John. without meaning to, i dont even see it.
i guess i was just used to it. i dont know anything else, so now that john wants to be better, i dont let him, because i dont know how to.
it doesnt make sense. im hurting him and me by knowing that the hurt i felt with Ruben, i am causing someone else.
since deleting myspace, im starting to notice how much free time i have hahaa. i dont think i was addicted, because if i was, then this withdrwal process would be a lot harder.
i just need to continue writing here, so i anstay sane.
any help would be greatly appreciated.
thanks
i have SUCH a good thing in my life, he is perfect for me, but i cant open my eyes and appreicate it.
i catch myself acting like Ruben, being an ass to John. without meaning to, i dont even see it.
i guess i was just used to it. i dont know anything else, so now that john wants to be better, i dont let him, because i dont know how to.
it doesnt make sense. im hurting him and me by knowing that the hurt i felt with Ruben, i am causing someone else.
since deleting myspace, im starting to notice how much free time i have hahaa. i dont think i was addicted, because if i was, then this withdrwal process would be a lot harder.
i just need to continue writing here, so i anstay sane.
any help would be greatly appreciated.
thanks