im to gay for a journal

[rocafellabia]

last journal entry.. ill try and make it long. everything was horrible, i wouldve done it again but it supposibly made to many people sad or whatever and my promise with her but i dunno. then it got a little better when i seen her but i didnt talk to her i felt bad but i smiled just looking at her, next day came over her house again was good we talked and hugged and i got excited bragging how i got like 2 hugs from michelle.. next day i was allowed over so we chilled everyone left michelle to go to kyla's or whatever so i came back and hung out with her, and talked or tried to, now everythings back to the way it was because i suck but oh well i guess i get a hat today if my mom doesnt find out ive been sneaking out and hanging around . i hope not, im going to start just sitting at home and watching mtvj and mtvh from now on after and before school, nothing ever gets better no matter how hard i try, but blah thats whats been up. i guess im gone from now on ... maybe 1 day when everythings better ill reentry this bullshit ..

I love you soooo much Michelle you mean everything to me, I'm sorry for all the drama i put in your life. I love you boo