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You know, it's really odd when you're completely satisfied and happy with the things in your life right now, but simultaneously long for what once was or what could be.
I keep thinking back on the past. Or on the dreams I used to have that I've since let go of.
Maybe it's just.. that I miss having things to want? Because I have everything I want?
It seems like my life has so many different paths and each one could suit me just fine, so it's like... I have no idea which one to choose.. because it's not like choosing between eating cake or eating worms, it's like choosing between.. eating cake or eating ice cream: it just really depends on what you're in the mood for at the time, because they're both equally good and there's no other way to decide. And then once you're eating one, you wonder if you'd be happier had you chosen the other..or you wait too long and the cake gets dry and stale, or the ice cream melts, and you're left having chosen too late and you end up with nothing.... timing is everything...
WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY CHOICES? WHY CAN'T SOMEONE JUST PICK FOR ME, AND ERASE ALL THE OTHER CHOICES SO I NEVER WONDER WHAT I'M MISSING, OR IF I HAVE THE BEST LIFE POSSIBLE -- THAT WAY, IT'LL BE THE ONLY LIFE POSSIBLE.
GOD DAMN IT.
this sucks =(
I keep thinking back on the past. Or on the dreams I used to have that I've since let go of.
Maybe it's just.. that I miss having things to want? Because I have everything I want?
It seems like my life has so many different paths and each one could suit me just fine, so it's like... I have no idea which one to choose.. because it's not like choosing between eating cake or eating worms, it's like choosing between.. eating cake or eating ice cream: it just really depends on what you're in the mood for at the time, because they're both equally good and there's no other way to decide. And then once you're eating one, you wonder if you'd be happier had you chosen the other..or you wait too long and the cake gets dry and stale, or the ice cream melts, and you're left having chosen too late and you end up with nothing.... timing is everything...
WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY CHOICES? WHY CAN'T SOMEONE JUST PICK FOR ME, AND ERASE ALL THE OTHER CHOICES SO I NEVER WONDER WHAT I'M MISSING, OR IF I HAVE THE BEST LIFE POSSIBLE -- THAT WAY, IT'LL BE THE ONLY LIFE POSSIBLE.
GOD DAMN IT.
this sucks =(