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What a fucking rollercoaster.
Barely any sleep last night. Strange, unhappy dreams...
Failed math final today. Performed abysmally on english final.
selena's out of town. parents are on my back about grades, guilt tripping me for not working harder.. which does a fucking lot of good now, doesn't it? when there are four hours left of school this year?
Thought i didn't get the job i applied for, since they said i'd get a letter in the mail by today. Put me in a great mood. Then my mom just got a call saying I did get the job. Fucking great. I had already made peace with going to school instead of working and convinced myself I was better off.
I don't even want to talk about what's going on on other levels. I'm really just disappointed. confused. i guess i should've known, but my optimism got the best of me. Gotta learn to keep out where I'm not wanted.
I'm expecting about a 3.6 this semester. I'm rounding down, and if it turns out to be any lower than that, let it be known that my parents will slaughter me. So. If I turn up in the papers as murdered, you'll know who to watch out for.
I think I had a dream about J last night. I don't know why his hair is always the focus when i dream about him. It kept changing..sometimes it was faintly red...sometimes light brown..
I'm sorry if I've been short with any of you lately. It's been a tough year. Things'll be better in the summer. Mark my words.
Barely any sleep last night. Strange, unhappy dreams...
Failed math final today. Performed abysmally on english final.
selena's out of town. parents are on my back about grades, guilt tripping me for not working harder.. which does a fucking lot of good now, doesn't it? when there are four hours left of school this year?
Thought i didn't get the job i applied for, since they said i'd get a letter in the mail by today. Put me in a great mood. Then my mom just got a call saying I did get the job. Fucking great. I had already made peace with going to school instead of working and convinced myself I was better off.
I don't even want to talk about what's going on on other levels. I'm really just disappointed. confused. i guess i should've known, but my optimism got the best of me. Gotta learn to keep out where I'm not wanted.
I'm expecting about a 3.6 this semester. I'm rounding down, and if it turns out to be any lower than that, let it be known that my parents will slaughter me. So. If I turn up in the papers as murdered, you'll know who to watch out for.
I think I had a dream about J last night. I don't know why his hair is always the focus when i dream about him. It kept changing..sometimes it was faintly red...sometimes light brown..
I'm sorry if I've been short with any of you lately. It's been a tough year. Things'll be better in the summer. Mark my words.