May 15, 2009 01:35
I'm never going to get any.
I know this is the opposite of positive affirmation, and I know that saying this only hurts my chances, but I'm never going to get any. It's just a fact.
I'm never going to get any.
It was the last big giant fucking asshole kids party.
I might miss them a little.
Never going to get any.
I hang out with way too many girls.
I do way too many girly things.
That's a weird word, girls.
What do I do?
Edit?
Write?
Perform?
Join Ringling?
This is the most major decision I've ever had to make.
It's gonna impact the rest of my life.
This sucks.
But I have to make it.
I wanna kill myself.
Man does this suck.
I don't want to have to decide.
I wish I knew what I was gonna do.
Four days until I graduate.
Then what?
I have no idea.
I wish I knew.
I hate this.
But one thing is true.
It's not a joke, it's the truth.
It's not a self-fulfilling prophecy.
It's the truth.
I'm never gonna get any.
Never.
Never.
I'm kinda accepting it.
But it's never gonna happen.
Never.
Never.
Never.