Never

May 15, 2009 01:35

I'm never going to get any.

I know this is the opposite of positive affirmation, and I know that saying this only hurts my chances, but I'm never going to get any. It's just a fact.

I'm never going to get any.

It was the last big giant fucking asshole kids party.

I might miss them a little.

Never going to get any.

I hang out with way too many girls.

I do way too many girly things.

That's a weird word, girls.

What do I do?

Edit?

Write?

Perform?

Join Ringling?

This is the most major decision I've ever had to make.

It's gonna impact the rest of my life.

This sucks.

But I have to make it.

I wanna kill myself.

Man does this suck.

I don't want to have to decide.

I wish I knew what I was gonna do.

Four days until I graduate.

Then what?

I have no idea.

I wish I knew.

I hate this.

But one thing is true.

It's not a joke, it's the truth.

It's not a self-fulfilling prophecy.

It's the truth.

I'm never gonna get any.

Never.

Never.

I'm kinda accepting it.

But it's never gonna happen.

Never.

Never.

Never.
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