i know i really need to comment more.......
sorry guys :(
I feel so sad right now. Yesterday started off as one of the most awesome days i ever had. I finally met this girl for the first time and boy was i ever impressed. But i noticed a feeling towards the end of the night. I realized that i am not a very jealous person but i am really selfish. We drank (i sang of course) we played darts and she got to meet whats grown to be like family and as someone i know was standing next to her when i came out of the jon it occured to me that if i could have spent the whole day with just her and no one else i would have been much happier.
Now to the sad part......
as the bar is about to close we are outside having a smoke and this dude starts talking crap about me in front of her. All i did was ask him to please stop and he was like what are you gonna do about it? from there i blacked out then i came to and my friends were holding me down saying "dude its me calm down" and i turned around and she was gone. i feel so horrible like some kinda monster but the truth is this doesnt happen to me very often. Its not the first time i ever blacked out but i cant believe i did it while she was with me. I dont even remember throwing a punch until i was on the ground and i couldnt see who it was and my friends were trying to hold me down.
I really like her i just hope she doesnt hate me for that. I dont think either of us could deny we had a great time up until that point but damnit i didnt even get a kiss bye or anything. and we had been kissing from the moment she picked me up. God i hope she doesnt hate me.
I feel so sad right now. Yesterday started off as one of the most awesome days i ever had. I finally met this girl for the first time and boy was i ever impressed. But i noticed a feeling towards the end of the night. I realized that i am not a very jealous person but i am really selfish. We drank (i sang of course) we played darts and she got to meet whats grown to be like family and as someone i know was standing next to her when i came out of the jon it occured to me that if i could have spent the whole day with just her and no one else i would have been much happier.
Now to the sad part......
as the bar is about to close we are outside having a smoke and this dude starts talking crap about me in front of her. All i did was ask him to please stop and he was like what are you gonna do about it? from there i blacked out then i came to and my friends were holding me down saying "dude its me calm down" and i turned around and she was gone. i feel so horrible like some kinda monster but the truth is this doesnt happen to me very often. Its not the first time i ever blacked out but i cant believe i did it while she was with me. I dont even remember throwing a punch until i was on the ground and i couldnt see who it was and my friends were trying to hold me down.
I really like her i just hope she doesnt hate me for that. I dont think either of us could deny we had a great time up until that point but damnit i didnt even get a kiss bye or anything. and we had been kissing from the moment she picked me up. God i hope she doesnt hate me.