well this is public.....
only cuz the last one wasnt... I am in a pretty good mood. I have plans for monday. I am going to meet this girl (who from what is seems to me through chatting and telephones for a few days) and i know nothing about her looks all i know is that i like her outgoing personality as well as her understanding and acceptance qualities. I mean she knows alot of the places ive been and regret those days herself but also says she likes to go out and like kick it. And seriously i would not even care what she looks like because of what i know and feel? yes feel. she tells me that she just gets that happy feeling each time we talk (basically butterflies) and it makes me feel similar. This happened to me once before and it lasted a good 2 and a half years. my heart was broken in the end.
Dude these feelings are burrly. I mean it just feels like one of those things that just cant be left ignored. You both know it and never even met. You trust eachother because you know neither of you is going to keep secrets from eachother.
Youre nervous....think about it. You both know where this is going because you both feel anxious to get this started. And you both hope that you will want eachother more as you finally go out. And that is a good thing.
I hope im not like getting the wrong feelings (most of the top was the inner me recognizing my feelings) so soon. I hope this is how it needs to be. Dude I even had a better day at work because i had talked with her. It like totally got my head on straight for the day like it was all i needed. I was supposed to be off today and work asked if I could come in they just fired one of the new guys.
I knew this guy wouldnt last a single day. im suprised he lasted 3? He came in afterwards to get paid and told the owner in front of the entrance to the feed barn that he fired him cuz he was black and didnt have kids to feed. Total bullshit (excuse the french :p) cuz homeboys black and the only reason he aint working right now is cuz he is in crutches and the insurance wont pay for the operation on his knee. And not working he cant pay for it himself? And he has kids to feed so this "truck" that just fired can go "truck" himself the duck out of our feed barn ;\
They hired this jackass and paid him $110 for 3 days of eating while not on break using the cell phone when not on break and just overall trucking it. Hell yeah i should have just made some quick cash in a few days and got the hell out of there too but here i am 9 months later still loading bales of hay,50lb bags of feed, 40lb bags of dog food and it just seems so damn easy to me its sick. Ive actually lost 20lbs working there. I had to buy a new belt cuz my old one got like shredded in one spot but now i can wear it and get way past the shredded part. amazing how i didnt lose weight drinking lite beer?
anyways my final pic of the day....
Dude these feelings are burrly. I mean it just feels like one of those things that just cant be left ignored. You both know it and never even met. You trust eachother because you know neither of you is going to keep secrets from eachother.
Youre nervous....think about it. You both know where this is going because you both feel anxious to get this started. And you both hope that you will want eachother more as you finally go out. And that is a good thing.
I hope im not like getting the wrong feelings (most of the top was the inner me recognizing my feelings) so soon. I hope this is how it needs to be. Dude I even had a better day at work because i had talked with her. It like totally got my head on straight for the day like it was all i needed. I was supposed to be off today and work asked if I could come in they just fired one of the new guys.
I knew this guy wouldnt last a single day. im suprised he lasted 3? He came in afterwards to get paid and told the owner in front of the entrance to the feed barn that he fired him cuz he was black and didnt have kids to feed. Total bullshit (excuse the french :p) cuz homeboys black and the only reason he aint working right now is cuz he is in crutches and the insurance wont pay for the operation on his knee. And not working he cant pay for it himself? And he has kids to feed so this "truck" that just fired can go "truck" himself the duck out of our feed barn ;\
They hired this jackass and paid him $110 for 3 days of eating while not on break using the cell phone when not on break and just overall trucking it. Hell yeah i should have just made some quick cash in a few days and got the hell out of there too but here i am 9 months later still loading bales of hay,50lb bags of feed, 40lb bags of dog food and it just seems so damn easy to me its sick. Ive actually lost 20lbs working there. I had to buy a new belt cuz my old one got like shredded in one spot but now i can wear it and get way past the shredded part. amazing how i didnt lose weight drinking lite beer?
anyways my final pic of the day....