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dammit. im just going to deem myself irrational. this way everytime i am feeling whether it be happy or sad, or angry, or frusturated, i can tell myself that these feeling are not real,and they are just a product of chemical imbalances. if i dont believe in my feeling maybe that will stop existing, or at least be a little more subtle.
its hard to tell these days, what exactly im feeling. i often cannot tell the difference between hungry and angry. and i also cannot tell the difference between drunk and happy. a day or so ago i went out with katie and chelsey,i had fun with some people i have jsut met or have met recently. people remembered me who ive only met once or twice, and gave me hugs. and i felt comfortable with a group of people who ive soo feared, and have annoyed me. i wish i knew if these experiences are legitmate, or just a result of a couple of drinks.
i would like to know if i will make friends before i leave this place, that would be strange and ironic. and exciting and frusturating.
its hard to tell these days, what exactly im feeling. i often cannot tell the difference between hungry and angry. and i also cannot tell the difference between drunk and happy. a day or so ago i went out with katie and chelsey,i had fun with some people i have jsut met or have met recently. people remembered me who ive only met once or twice, and gave me hugs. and i felt comfortable with a group of people who ive soo feared, and have annoyed me. i wish i knew if these experiences are legitmate, or just a result of a couple of drinks.
i would like to know if i will make friends before i leave this place, that would be strange and ironic. and exciting and frusturating.