fuuuck man
ive harldy slept at all. and when i can i wake up crying.
my whole body is sooooo heavy.
i just want to see him.
i have hardly eaten anything at all
ive hardly drank anything at all and when i have its just alcohol.
i need someone to hang out with. no someone who comments on here saying "oh ill hang out erin hang out with me", i need someone that really wants to hang out, so they call me. you know? like robyn. she called me and said we could hang out but then me and my parents got in a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiig fight. it sucked and i never called her back. but i couldnt becasue i was crying a ton. so im really sorry robyn.
i dont want things to be like this. we arent even going to talk for a while. thinking about that drives me nuts. hes my fucking drug of choice. im so addicted to that boy its aweful. and that needs to stop, which is one reason i do agree that all this is for the better. im not as strong as i used to be. im not as independent. and thats really crappy. i dunno. i hate it a lot. i hate all of this a lot. i hate feeling like this i hate thinking like this.
god i fucking miss him soooo much.
i love last kisses more than anything. it honesty does make things a bit easier. it makes things seem more official to me for some reason. it makes things seem okay. i dont know why im like that but they help me more than anything. haha.
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i get to see beautiful jib today. words cant explain how excited i am.
my whole body is sooooo heavy.
i just want to see him.
i have hardly eaten anything at all
ive hardly drank anything at all and when i have its just alcohol.
i need someone to hang out with. no someone who comments on here saying "oh ill hang out erin hang out with me", i need someone that really wants to hang out, so they call me. you know? like robyn. she called me and said we could hang out but then me and my parents got in a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiig fight. it sucked and i never called her back. but i couldnt becasue i was crying a ton. so im really sorry robyn.
i dont want things to be like this. we arent even going to talk for a while. thinking about that drives me nuts. hes my fucking drug of choice. im so addicted to that boy its aweful. and that needs to stop, which is one reason i do agree that all this is for the better. im not as strong as i used to be. im not as independent. and thats really crappy. i dunno. i hate it a lot. i hate all of this a lot. i hate feeling like this i hate thinking like this.
god i fucking miss him soooo much.
i love last kisses more than anything. it honesty does make things a bit easier. it makes things seem more official to me for some reason. it makes things seem okay. i dont know why im like that but they help me more than anything. haha.
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i get to see beautiful jib today. words cant explain how excited i am.