earth day
well kids the past week has been a bit of an emotional overload...
I found out that my close friend kevin, who is like a big brother to me,lost his best friend. its seems to be the most jarring when someone young dies. lucky for Mike he died in his sleep, if we could all be so lucky. i dont know the exact cause of death but many believe he died of a broken heart. his wife passed away about 9 months ago, i cant remember the cause of death but he was devastated about it. he posted a few entires on his my space journal about how much he missed her and how hard life was without her. if you read the entries, its quite sad. even after his death you still feel for how much he missed her. ill miss him but i dont feel bad for him, everyone seems to take comfort in the fact that he is with her again. im not religious and i dont know what happens to us after we die but im positive he is much happier now than he has been in the last 9 months or so since hes lost her.
ive been thinking about the end a lot lately because as you may or may not have heard something that will change the world as we know it is set to take place December 12th, 2012 which is only in four years. i only take this half way seriously because there is an actual event taking place on that date. the milky way, all the planets and the sun are set to align on this date. its something we have never experienced and scientist are not sure what effects this will have. some of the scenarios are not good for the human race. some sisters that i work with also have heard about this from their father, who is a geologists and he believes too that this day is an important one. not only that but the myan calender, which has proven to be highly accurate suddenly stops on 12/21/12. who knows nothing could happen, which is highly possible. but i think the human race as a whole is awful. they way people treat each other and the things people do to other people is just sad. the way we treat the planet and the other life on it, is unbelievable. i believe that people are basically good and that there are people out there doing the right thing but as a whole we have abused our right to be here and if we all disappeared tomorrow i would not feel bad for us at all. maybe we will get lucky on that eventful day and be taught a serious lesson about all we are doing wrong and will make it right but i think the world ending on that day is a more likely scenario based on our track record. im not afraid of death but i am afraid of dying. this might sound like a bunch of b.s. but google it,im sure you will find plenty about it. until then and possibly after then. im going to continue to do my best to be good to myself AND others. and continue to take steps to reduce my negative effect on the planet.
and now for something completely different...
this week someone who i counted out and figured nothing would happen with has turned that all upside down. i now have more hope than i have ever had. his behavior was so confusing to me that i figured there was nothing there. however, in the last week he has acted in a whole new way towards me. so the other night i got him to tell me more about him self in ten minutes than he has in the 6 months that ive known him. not only did he say a lot but it was very personal stuff that i dont imagine is easy to say and i wouldnt be surprised if im the only person hes said all this too. im glad he opened up to me because i could have never guessed the stuff he has told me or figured it out. because of his confusing behavior i figured he didnt care much but i now know its quite the opposite. he has a lot of things to work through but i know good things will happen. he told that he has wanted to tell me these things for months.i feel good about all this because basically nothing has happened between us since December. everything that has happened in the last week or two is leaps and bounds from there so i know that all he needs is time.
all in all it was some week.
I found out that my close friend kevin, who is like a big brother to me,lost his best friend. its seems to be the most jarring when someone young dies. lucky for Mike he died in his sleep, if we could all be so lucky. i dont know the exact cause of death but many believe he died of a broken heart. his wife passed away about 9 months ago, i cant remember the cause of death but he was devastated about it. he posted a few entires on his my space journal about how much he missed her and how hard life was without her. if you read the entries, its quite sad. even after his death you still feel for how much he missed her. ill miss him but i dont feel bad for him, everyone seems to take comfort in the fact that he is with her again. im not religious and i dont know what happens to us after we die but im positive he is much happier now than he has been in the last 9 months or so since hes lost her.
ive been thinking about the end a lot lately because as you may or may not have heard something that will change the world as we know it is set to take place December 12th, 2012 which is only in four years. i only take this half way seriously because there is an actual event taking place on that date. the milky way, all the planets and the sun are set to align on this date. its something we have never experienced and scientist are not sure what effects this will have. some of the scenarios are not good for the human race. some sisters that i work with also have heard about this from their father, who is a geologists and he believes too that this day is an important one. not only that but the myan calender, which has proven to be highly accurate suddenly stops on 12/21/12. who knows nothing could happen, which is highly possible. but i think the human race as a whole is awful. they way people treat each other and the things people do to other people is just sad. the way we treat the planet and the other life on it, is unbelievable. i believe that people are basically good and that there are people out there doing the right thing but as a whole we have abused our right to be here and if we all disappeared tomorrow i would not feel bad for us at all. maybe we will get lucky on that eventful day and be taught a serious lesson about all we are doing wrong and will make it right but i think the world ending on that day is a more likely scenario based on our track record. im not afraid of death but i am afraid of dying. this might sound like a bunch of b.s. but google it,im sure you will find plenty about it. until then and possibly after then. im going to continue to do my best to be good to myself AND others. and continue to take steps to reduce my negative effect on the planet.
and now for something completely different...
this week someone who i counted out and figured nothing would happen with has turned that all upside down. i now have more hope than i have ever had. his behavior was so confusing to me that i figured there was nothing there. however, in the last week he has acted in a whole new way towards me. so the other night i got him to tell me more about him self in ten minutes than he has in the 6 months that ive known him. not only did he say a lot but it was very personal stuff that i dont imagine is easy to say and i wouldnt be surprised if im the only person hes said all this too. im glad he opened up to me because i could have never guessed the stuff he has told me or figured it out. because of his confusing behavior i figured he didnt care much but i now know its quite the opposite. he has a lot of things to work through but i know good things will happen. he told that he has wanted to tell me these things for months.i feel good about all this because basically nothing has happened between us since December. everything that has happened in the last week or two is leaps and bounds from there so i know that all he needs is time.
all in all it was some week.