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Hello Everyone!
I guess I'm going to have to retract the statement in my last post because I do have something to say, or at least maybe feel I personally need to communicate. This is going to be the "I'm going to vaguely recollect the past events of the year" post.
To summarize it all, a lot has happened and nothing has happened. I suppose a lot of this year has followed that pattern: a chain of events that have both affected and failed to produce any meaningful significance in my life. Well, kind of. My second year away has been the most defining to date, I've fallen out of the influence of college's initial impressiveness and became more in tune with what I really wanted from it, rather than what I expected of it. A lot has come to my attention in the past year, perhaps the most significant and painful was coming to realize many peoples true character. In dealing with scandalous manipulative housemates, stupid and irresponsible boys, and scheming and inconsiderate friends (well, just one) I have found out the hard way that a lot of the people in college have a lot of growing up to do before I even want to consider being within a 10 yard radius of them. Their negligent attitude towards the feelings and value of people have only the power to silently destroy. I suppose that this is just a mandatory lesson of life, and if anything I've only derived from it a sense of the type of person I don't want to see myself become or be associated with.
I suppose a positive result of all this is that I have gained a greater sense of who I really am and what I really value. And now I have a greater ability to filter out all the douchebags that have attempted to destroy my sense of self-worth and self-generated happiness. For those who have shown me what being a truly great friend really is (Edna, I know you are on this thing..) I am forever grateful for the newfound sense of hope and optimism for have planted in me. Lol, this thing is getting cheesy but I cannot keep myself from expressing gratitude for all my good friends and the happy moments we've had.
All in all, I can say that this year has been far from perfect but despite all the shit that went down I can take comfort in knowing that I am taking from it only the best of the worst.
; )
I guess I'm going to have to retract the statement in my last post because I do have something to say, or at least maybe feel I personally need to communicate. This is going to be the "I'm going to vaguely recollect the past events of the year" post.
To summarize it all, a lot has happened and nothing has happened. I suppose a lot of this year has followed that pattern: a chain of events that have both affected and failed to produce any meaningful significance in my life. Well, kind of. My second year away has been the most defining to date, I've fallen out of the influence of college's initial impressiveness and became more in tune with what I really wanted from it, rather than what I expected of it. A lot has come to my attention in the past year, perhaps the most significant and painful was coming to realize many peoples true character. In dealing with scandalous manipulative housemates, stupid and irresponsible boys, and scheming and inconsiderate friends (well, just one) I have found out the hard way that a lot of the people in college have a lot of growing up to do before I even want to consider being within a 10 yard radius of them. Their negligent attitude towards the feelings and value of people have only the power to silently destroy. I suppose that this is just a mandatory lesson of life, and if anything I've only derived from it a sense of the type of person I don't want to see myself become or be associated with.
I suppose a positive result of all this is that I have gained a greater sense of who I really am and what I really value. And now I have a greater ability to filter out all the douchebags that have attempted to destroy my sense of self-worth and self-generated happiness. For those who have shown me what being a truly great friend really is (Edna, I know you are on this thing..) I am forever grateful for the newfound sense of hope and optimism for have planted in me. Lol, this thing is getting cheesy but I cannot keep myself from expressing gratitude for all my good friends and the happy moments we've had.
All in all, I can say that this year has been far from perfect but despite all the shit that went down I can take comfort in knowing that I am taking from it only the best of the worst.
; )