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I am slowly gaining weight I think. I am hovering around 120 pounds. I think I need to eat more fast food. It's not a good long term solution because it's unhealthy to consume, but it seems like you can get a lot of calories at once every time you go to one. And it is easy to eat - I went to Arby's and somehow ended up with two sandwiches in my bag and curly fries and I was able to finish it all. But I am also making smoothies all the time so I am getting a lot of fruit into my diet. It always happens when I try to exercise I do too much and have to recover then I lose my motivation and become depressed. I keep thinking if I weren't so skinny maybe someone would like me, but I'm so lonely and unhappy and I feel hopeless so I don't feel like eating anything. I hate my body.
And I hate that just one person treating you bad can make you hurt for so long.
And I hate that just one person treating you bad can make you hurt for so long.