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I guess I'll do a little recap of the year and reflect some on it. hmmm
Lets see...I honestly don't even remember where I spent last new years, probably here with Jim. It seems so long ago to me, thinking back to when we spent every day together all the time. We worked together, we lived together, we slept together. We had our 1 year anniversary in april, and that was fun. Shortly after that was one of the best days of my life, 420. That day was spent hanging out with dave and meeting up with different people and toking up. It was a beautiful day and the only thing that mattered was just chilling the fuck out and spending time with friends and getting fucked up, and we did, and it was absolutely wonderful. Smoked in wallace woods with shay, stopped by Tim's house for a bit, got some pizza, toked up with dan and then unfortunately got caught by his uncle which sorta sucked, but i was so high I dont really remember it. We were promised some sort of BBQ food type deal but we never got it, got high and forgot I guess. June came around, and with it came another just absolutely wonderful day, the oasis concert. Shit, what a great fucking concert. It was around this time that things were just sort of not working out with me and jim, and things were getting weird. The feelings I had once had just weren't there anymore, and I wasn't sure why or if they would come back. Then later that summer I went on vacation without Jim, for a week. It was the longest we had spent away from each other, and I think it was a good thing. I enjoyed being with just friends and without him, which we never really did when we were together. I made some new friends, and in the end realized Jim and I just weren't going to work out in the end. When I got back I had pretty much decided what had to be done, but I wanted to be sure. We spent a day or two together and it just didn't feel right, so I had to end it. It was hard, believe me. It's a hard way to break up with someone, when the only real reason is I just don't feel the same way about him anymore. It would have been a lot easier if i had fallen in love with someone else, or if someone had cheated on someone, or anything other than that reason, but, thats all I had to go on. We both put a lot into the relationship and I was very sad to see it all go, and it was hard to let go of it, but in the end I think it's for the best. Despite that though, the rest of the year went pretty smoothly. Hung out with Dan pretty much on a daily basis, went out and did my own thing. Watched lots of weird movies, lots of cartoons, smoked a lot of pot. I'm not really sure where it was in this year, I think shortly after I broke up with Jim, my father's health just started declining. Very forgetful about short term and long term things, as well as lots of very odd little habits started becoming worse and worse. All the folding of toliet paper and wrapping up sweet and low and popsicle wrappers in it with duct tape, very odd. I worry about him a lot, and when I say that he's the coolest baddest mother fucker around, I'm not kidding. I love that man more than I love anything else on this whole damn planet. Well, and as of the past month of 2005, it's been pretty fuckin shitty. I am very glad that dan moved from the hospital to a rehab center though, and that means he's making progress and getting better everyday. I never really realized how much he meant to me until this. I miss all his random text messages that would keep me company at work, all the weird creepy movies he'd make me watch. *sigh* when he's out of there and back home and back on his feet, all I wanna do is just sit on his front porch and fuckin smoke a joint with him, I miss that the most. fuckin asshole. Anyhow, thats pretty much how the year went. Hopefully this next one will bring on something new and exciting for all of us.
"Well, what are you waiting for?!"
"I dunno...something amazing"
"yeah, me too kid, me too"
Lets see...I honestly don't even remember where I spent last new years, probably here with Jim. It seems so long ago to me, thinking back to when we spent every day together all the time. We worked together, we lived together, we slept together. We had our 1 year anniversary in april, and that was fun. Shortly after that was one of the best days of my life, 420. That day was spent hanging out with dave and meeting up with different people and toking up. It was a beautiful day and the only thing that mattered was just chilling the fuck out and spending time with friends and getting fucked up, and we did, and it was absolutely wonderful. Smoked in wallace woods with shay, stopped by Tim's house for a bit, got some pizza, toked up with dan and then unfortunately got caught by his uncle which sorta sucked, but i was so high I dont really remember it. We were promised some sort of BBQ food type deal but we never got it, got high and forgot I guess. June came around, and with it came another just absolutely wonderful day, the oasis concert. Shit, what a great fucking concert. It was around this time that things were just sort of not working out with me and jim, and things were getting weird. The feelings I had once had just weren't there anymore, and I wasn't sure why or if they would come back. Then later that summer I went on vacation without Jim, for a week. It was the longest we had spent away from each other, and I think it was a good thing. I enjoyed being with just friends and without him, which we never really did when we were together. I made some new friends, and in the end realized Jim and I just weren't going to work out in the end. When I got back I had pretty much decided what had to be done, but I wanted to be sure. We spent a day or two together and it just didn't feel right, so I had to end it. It was hard, believe me. It's a hard way to break up with someone, when the only real reason is I just don't feel the same way about him anymore. It would have been a lot easier if i had fallen in love with someone else, or if someone had cheated on someone, or anything other than that reason, but, thats all I had to go on. We both put a lot into the relationship and I was very sad to see it all go, and it was hard to let go of it, but in the end I think it's for the best. Despite that though, the rest of the year went pretty smoothly. Hung out with Dan pretty much on a daily basis, went out and did my own thing. Watched lots of weird movies, lots of cartoons, smoked a lot of pot. I'm not really sure where it was in this year, I think shortly after I broke up with Jim, my father's health just started declining. Very forgetful about short term and long term things, as well as lots of very odd little habits started becoming worse and worse. All the folding of toliet paper and wrapping up sweet and low and popsicle wrappers in it with duct tape, very odd. I worry about him a lot, and when I say that he's the coolest baddest mother fucker around, I'm not kidding. I love that man more than I love anything else on this whole damn planet. Well, and as of the past month of 2005, it's been pretty fuckin shitty. I am very glad that dan moved from the hospital to a rehab center though, and that means he's making progress and getting better everyday. I never really realized how much he meant to me until this. I miss all his random text messages that would keep me company at work, all the weird creepy movies he'd make me watch. *sigh* when he's out of there and back home and back on his feet, all I wanna do is just sit on his front porch and fuckin smoke a joint with him, I miss that the most. fuckin asshole. Anyhow, thats pretty much how the year went. Hopefully this next one will bring on something new and exciting for all of us.
"Well, what are you waiting for?!"
"I dunno...something amazing"
"yeah, me too kid, me too"