this world isnt big enough for the two of us
i want to move away to another country. in some ways i want to ask andrew if i could go with him to taiwan because i think it would be good for me... and i would like to continue dating i am not quite certain if this is possible but i would like to know i mean it just would be fun i think but i don't know... i dont know much about love or any of that jazz but i know how he makes me feel... and i know i like it... i like him a lot... circumstance has a fun way of turning your life upside down and skull fucking you... andrew is like family to me... i always know i have a person to talk to when i need it... and although he might get frustrated i know he is there and thats really comforting... i dont particularly know why i am writing this here i guess its just things i am to scared to say which compared to what i say to most people as much as i have said thus far in the relationship i think i have done fairly well... i just hope he has as much trust in me... sometimes i dont know if i am capable of being the good boyfriend i think i am but i don't really quite know...i want him to feel he is loved... i think when i have some money i am going to buy him something nice i am into that stuff showing affection through a gift or meaningless object because it gives that object a sort of meaning i would think no it has a purpose... i really want a purpose... i want to go to school do well... make something of myself... i want to be happy... i want a nice place... i want to go have fun with the person i love... i want to soar through the clouds... i want to embrace with open arms... i want to go grocery shopping... i want a pet... i want a family... i want to leave the country... i want to have a picnic... i want a candle lit dinner... i want to feel like i made the moon with my bare hands... i want to feel like lava does when it bursts forth into the skies... but first i think ill go to sleep there is a boy that looks rather lonely sleeping to my left and i shall put my arm around his beautiful body and never for one second think this is right or wrong but know deep in my heart that its happening and it feels really good... <3 goodnight Lj Kids