changing from sunrise to sunset.

[robot_x3_love]

i awoke this morning to a feeling of satisfaction.
i dressed and walked out the door.
and just drove off...
another day going by and im consuming every ray of happiness i possibly can
i have nothing to be happy about, no not at all.
i act out my smile and fight away guilty frowns.
i cover up with boys and kisses and friends and flirting
and then...then it hits me.
i am lost.
and a huge part of my heart has been displaced.
and i don't know what it is,
but it's quite a familiar feeling.

i'll never get to hold him again like i once did.
and it hurts so much to think that.
but this is what i need to do.
b/c this is who i am.
Wake up.
You're looking at the real world now.