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so i half hate my life.
of course i didn't expect this whole being arrested thing to have zero impact on my family life, but this is ridiculous.
i don't see how they don't already know how shitty i feel about this.
in my heart of hearts, i dont think shoplifting is that horrible.
to them its all the same, and they're acting like i killed someone or was caught doing acid or something.
i tried explaining that thats why theres a difference between felonies and misdemeanors.
they pretty much ignore it.
and my mom wants to control who im friends with, saying that im being influenced by them.
not true.
yes, some of my friends do it.
but if i didnt want to, i wouldnt.
i dont do peer pressure.
curiosity, yes.
but not because of what anyone else thinks of it.
back when i was edge and no one else was, and ALL of my friends smoked pot...
did i? no.
and they want to start choosing who i hang with.
unfair.
as if excluding me from people who are as close if not closer to me is gonna make anything any better....
i don't understand why they can't understand that even though ive blown their mind,
they should trust me when i say I WONT DO IT ANYMORE.
i dont need any more punishment for this.
fuck in shit.
this craps on my record.. i want a good job and to go to college.
speaking of which, my parents are convinced that ive ruined my life or something.
that this is gonna effect me alot in the future.
i dont think im convinced.
it just hurts when my mom says she thought she knew me, but she didnt.
this is depressing.
and im a pussy.
of course i didn't expect this whole being arrested thing to have zero impact on my family life, but this is ridiculous.
i don't see how they don't already know how shitty i feel about this.
in my heart of hearts, i dont think shoplifting is that horrible.
to them its all the same, and they're acting like i killed someone or was caught doing acid or something.
i tried explaining that thats why theres a difference between felonies and misdemeanors.
they pretty much ignore it.
and my mom wants to control who im friends with, saying that im being influenced by them.
not true.
yes, some of my friends do it.
but if i didnt want to, i wouldnt.
i dont do peer pressure.
curiosity, yes.
but not because of what anyone else thinks of it.
back when i was edge and no one else was, and ALL of my friends smoked pot...
did i? no.
and they want to start choosing who i hang with.
unfair.
as if excluding me from people who are as close if not closer to me is gonna make anything any better....
i don't understand why they can't understand that even though ive blown their mind,
they should trust me when i say I WONT DO IT ANYMORE.
i dont need any more punishment for this.
fuck in shit.
this craps on my record.. i want a good job and to go to college.
speaking of which, my parents are convinced that ive ruined my life or something.
that this is gonna effect me alot in the future.
i dont think im convinced.
it just hurts when my mom says she thought she knew me, but she didnt.
this is depressing.
and im a pussy.