...catching up

[robot_slang]

this is the hardest thing i have ever done. i cried for only 3 minutes today in all of the time that all of this has been happening. i've not had a single moment alone and the time i do i just space out and not think of anything. im constantly making it a point to surround myself with people otherwise i'll just start thinking too much. what i dont understand is if someone wants a person to be with them wouldnt you show them in every way possible? wouldnt you give everything you have no matter how tiring or frustrating?

I've been writing a lot lately. I finally clicked creatively with a human being.

"once a poet, always a poet."

I used to be envious of your creativity flow and the passion for music you shared with others who werent myself.

It was an inexplicable jealousy.

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whats written is never complete
except for fairytales
is this what it's supposed to be ?
enduring the unfair
sitting mouth shut taking in your air
of lies and mystery
misery is sleeping hidden underneath the sheets
grip tight
sleep
goodnight
wake up to see how you feel incomplete
two steps forward wont take me back
dont wish to talk with a
a faulty heartbeat
of which that history
unraveled, twisted
again to be distant
refuse to listen
'love forever' is just a sin to me
willingly will
i
regretfully regret
time spent
instead
we tend to find comfort in whats left