i'm not ready

[robot_courtney]

for december 20th.

two years ago, december 20, my best friend steffany elise millage died in a horrible car accident.

for me, it is the worst day of the year.

i hope, for my sake & works sake that i am right about being off that day or i might not make it.

i'm practically having panic attacks just thinking about it.

ugh. i just want to cry.

i love you steff.