Well, here goes.
Maybe, just maybe, my grandpa is right. Through all the self glorifying rants and hopeless attempts, I just can't help but wonder, you know? I think he had something. I think I am worthless.
Oh, not another self pitying cop for attention. Fine, I'll stop. But I haven't done anything worth anything. I haven't changed anything. I haven't lived up to any expectations. In fact, most people don't even have expectations anymore. I'm not as cute as most. Or as smart. So, maybe he was right.
You know why I smoke? Because I honestly thought I wasn't dying fast enough.
Fuck it, just thoughts. It's okay, I'll be fine by tomorrow.
I'll see you then.
**end transmission
Oh, not another self pitying cop for attention. Fine, I'll stop. But I haven't done anything worth anything. I haven't changed anything. I haven't lived up to any expectations. In fact, most people don't even have expectations anymore. I'm not as cute as most. Or as smart. So, maybe he was right.
You know why I smoke? Because I honestly thought I wasn't dying fast enough.
Fuck it, just thoughts. It's okay, I'll be fine by tomorrow.
I'll see you then.
**end transmission