corporate memo no. 000009
that's my little qy and my lovely headphones. i love them.
i really don't want to be working right now. there's so much more for me to be doing-- musically. i can't get cubase ideas out of my head, and i can feel reaktor calling me home. this is killing my job performance, and my social life. i'm going to the vena cava show this friday, and hopefully greg can go. then there is some kind of movie wrap party on saturday for david's new film. from what i hear it's going to suck. i don't know how, but there's a "texan" idea of nuveau expressionism, and it's pretentious and annoying in it's own "texan" way. i'm a bit harsh, i know. and a bit stupid for saying these things w/ out first seeing the movie. blah blah blah, all these things are keeping me from my musical drive.
i've never been this motivated about it before. but suddenly there are all these ideas, and the fact that everything is sort of revolving around music this month, really helps to keep it all going. i forget how much i enjoy the process. all it takes is for me to put myself in the musical situation and then i just light up. but USUALLY when i'm away from it, it's faded and i forget how much i like it. not this time, oh no.
it's kinda killing the social life in that i'm not much of a conversationalist. i was chatting last night, but all i could think or chat about was my rough adventure setting up my audiocard. and when i'm in normal situations (i.e. real life), all i can say is "i've been looking at books and reading manuals on music software, staring at my computer, and learning all about music and making music.". music music music.
i'm trying to balance my learning time with my production time, but this week is definitely biased toward the learning aspect. probably next week i'll concentrate on just making the sounds i want.
xoxo
nik gaerlan
i really don't want to be working right now. there's so much more for me to be doing-- musically. i can't get cubase ideas out of my head, and i can feel reaktor calling me home. this is killing my job performance, and my social life. i'm going to the vena cava show this friday, and hopefully greg can go. then there is some kind of movie wrap party on saturday for david's new film. from what i hear it's going to suck. i don't know how, but there's a "texan" idea of nuveau expressionism, and it's pretentious and annoying in it's own "texan" way. i'm a bit harsh, i know. and a bit stupid for saying these things w/ out first seeing the movie. blah blah blah, all these things are keeping me from my musical drive.
i've never been this motivated about it before. but suddenly there are all these ideas, and the fact that everything is sort of revolving around music this month, really helps to keep it all going. i forget how much i enjoy the process. all it takes is for me to put myself in the musical situation and then i just light up. but USUALLY when i'm away from it, it's faded and i forget how much i like it. not this time, oh no.
it's kinda killing the social life in that i'm not much of a conversationalist. i was chatting last night, but all i could think or chat about was my rough adventure setting up my audiocard. and when i'm in normal situations (i.e. real life), all i can say is "i've been looking at books and reading manuals on music software, staring at my computer, and learning all about music and making music.". music music music.
i'm trying to balance my learning time with my production time, but this week is definitely biased toward the learning aspect. probably next week i'll concentrate on just making the sounds i want.
xoxo
nik gaerlan