epileptic.
This is a super self-indulgent entry, sorry.
I've been on the edge of tears all evening, boo hoo. I suspect that it's ju~st my cycle since the littlest things keep setting me off, but I keep catching myself getting into this everything-has-sucked thought process. Like, I don't even know. when I get in these moods, it's like I can only remember negative things that've happened recently (or like the past year, whatever) and it sets me off in this panic that everything will suck forever.
that sounds so silly once I write it out, ugh, ha ha. I keep feeling guilty about absolutely everything lately. Everrrything. and it'll happen that my guilt concerning one thing leads to avoiding another thing, then that turns into guilt that spills over somewhere else. it's awful. it's so silly. ugh.
I don't even know how to finish this. I compose lengthy journals in my head as I go through my bedtime routine, but when I open up this page, bof, nada. rien.
I've been on the edge of tears all evening, boo hoo. I suspect that it's ju~st my cycle since the littlest things keep setting me off, but I keep catching myself getting into this everything-has-sucked thought process. Like, I don't even know. when I get in these moods, it's like I can only remember negative things that've happened recently (or like the past year, whatever) and it sets me off in this panic that everything will suck forever.
that sounds so silly once I write it out, ugh, ha ha. I keep feeling guilty about absolutely everything lately. Everrrything. and it'll happen that my guilt concerning one thing leads to avoiding another thing, then that turns into guilt that spills over somewhere else. it's awful. it's so silly. ugh.
I don't even know how to finish this. I compose lengthy journals in my head as I go through my bedtime routine, but when I open up this page, bof, nada. rien.