Sep 12, 2005 02:21
But to speak of horizons passed and desires dropped is not to speak of ______. I wonder where ______ has led me? I might have gotten to Haiti anyway. I might have found my way to ground zero. I might have read many of the same books.
One day last March I was driving to the office, listening to The Byrds' "Turn, Turn, Turn." One second, humming along sort of thing, the next, existential crisis. A fraction of a second changes everything. I was driving along enjoying a song I hadn't heard in a long time, and then Then a hulking monster Chevy SUV crossed in front of me. One second, Byrds, next second, green Tahoe. So suddenly all I had time to do was take my foot off the gas pedal and realize I was about to die. (I grew up before seat belts and air bags; I knew about them, but they aren't, I now know, part of my mental landscape.) I knew i was about to die, and in that flickering instant I was ok with it. Bam!
I got out of the car and saw that it was totalled and that the young woman driving the other car was ok and I thought, "Cool! I wasn't afriad to die. Nice to know. Who knew? Nice to know."