MAJOR REVELATION
I I just experienced a serious revelation about my life and what I want to do with it... another lengthy entry, but something I need to write down for myself...
I was sifting through my e-mail at work today, and I came across one I had received from a lawyer/contact I have in Australia. (I've been planning on returning to Australia to study law after UW). I have been thinking and dwelling a lot lately, on the fact that I need to start applying to law school (already!) in the next 6-8 months... I've known since I was 5 years old that I wanted to someday be a successful attorney like my father, so I could be well respected and happy for the rest of my life.
But suddenly it occured to me- was my father ever really that happy with his job? In reality, all I can remember growing up is him being completely miserable, horribly overworked, and full of fatigue and stress- on a constant basis...something that affected my whole family, and probably contributed a lot to my parent's marriage falling apart after 25 years.
So why the hell do I want to go into law? I don't want his life... or anything that resembles it. I have been completely wrong about what I want to do basically my entire life, and I think it's finally surfacing in my mind... Fuck Law School ~ I don't need to be an attorney to be happy.
Here's what I WANT to do:
Music is/and always has been the love of my life (aside from my beautiful boyfriend). Playing piano, singing, studying musical theory and history, composition, and performance~ that is what makes me happy. Why did I spend 12 years of my life studying music and perfecting it, but never try and consider extending that through the rest of my life?
I already changed my major this year at UW - doubling in economics (which I've almost finished the requirements for), and musical theory/composition. Why not take it furthur? I checked up on the Sydney Conservatory of Music (at Univ. of Sydney, Australia)- the same university that uses the Sydney Opera House exclusively for their students... and realized they have exactly what I would love to do- and be happy doing.
I decided, instead of applying to law school (fuck law school), I'm going to apply to their joint masters/doctoral program in ethnomusicologiy and musical composition. It's a 3 year program that does 2 things. At the end of the 3 years, I'd have an MMus (masters in musicology), and a PhD in ethnomusicology - on a research study of my choice. For me, that is a hell of a lot more exciting and interesting than being lost in law books for the next 3-5 years. Have I lost my mind?
I was sifting through my e-mail at work today, and I came across one I had received from a lawyer/contact I have in Australia. (I've been planning on returning to Australia to study law after UW). I have been thinking and dwelling a lot lately, on the fact that I need to start applying to law school (already!) in the next 6-8 months... I've known since I was 5 years old that I wanted to someday be a successful attorney like my father, so I could be well respected and happy for the rest of my life.
But suddenly it occured to me- was my father ever really that happy with his job? In reality, all I can remember growing up is him being completely miserable, horribly overworked, and full of fatigue and stress- on a constant basis...something that affected my whole family, and probably contributed a lot to my parent's marriage falling apart after 25 years.
So why the hell do I want to go into law? I don't want his life... or anything that resembles it. I have been completely wrong about what I want to do basically my entire life, and I think it's finally surfacing in my mind... Fuck Law School ~ I don't need to be an attorney to be happy.
Here's what I WANT to do:
Music is/and always has been the love of my life (aside from my beautiful boyfriend). Playing piano, singing, studying musical theory and history, composition, and performance~ that is what makes me happy. Why did I spend 12 years of my life studying music and perfecting it, but never try and consider extending that through the rest of my life?
I already changed my major this year at UW - doubling in economics (which I've almost finished the requirements for), and musical theory/composition. Why not take it furthur? I checked up on the Sydney Conservatory of Music (at Univ. of Sydney, Australia)- the same university that uses the Sydney Opera House exclusively for their students... and realized they have exactly what I would love to do- and be happy doing.
I decided, instead of applying to law school (fuck law school), I'm going to apply to their joint masters/doctoral program in ethnomusicologiy and musical composition. It's a 3 year program that does 2 things. At the end of the 3 years, I'd have an MMus (masters in musicology), and a PhD in ethnomusicology - on a research study of my choice. For me, that is a hell of a lot more exciting and interesting than being lost in law books for the next 3-5 years. Have I lost my mind?