Aug 12, 2007 03:07
Probably has something to do with breaking up.
I've never wished such minor injuries on anyone before. Like when I assume he passed out on the floor, I hoped he would flatten part of his head to the floor while laying there for hours. Or that he throws up. And finds in the morning that he bruised himself. I hope he cries. For hours.
I hope that, in about a month, when I'm with someone else, it dawns on him that he could've kept me if he had just learned to say a few words (like "sorry" for one), learned to trust me and not just pretend to, learned that my feelings were valid and that he had some responsibility in keeping me happy, learned that words are not meaningless, including ones said in anger such as "you are not important to me", learned that maybe he should've called me on the phone once in a while (if he ever wanted to hear my voice again)...i could go on. But I think that if he doesn't learn anything from this about how to treat a girl, he is a waste of space.
A boyfriend is not a painting a girl admires. There has to be interaction. UNDERSTANDING. (He didn't want to understand, only tell me why I wasn't worth understanding.)
If you step on someone's foot, do you apologize? Even if it wasn't your intention to hurt them?
I am angry for so many reasons. But at the same time, I just don't care anymore.
breakups,
relationships,
greg,
love