So I turn 24...
and now I want a kid? It's like this biological alarm went off. I keep hitting snooze but it keeps chiming in every ten minutes.
There was a time when I wanted love. Now I want family. The more I think about death--after the incident when I saw Renie staring at the ceiling, unconscious--I realize Renie, my parents, they're all going to be gone before I am. I won't have family left--unless I have kids. I don't want to die alone. I don't even care if I'm married or have a partner in my life. I just want more.
Passing phase? Who knows. I know that once I have kids, I won't have time for my own life. And I want so much for myself that it would be impractical, impossible.
This is like hormones on a grander scale. This is instinct. Evolution--or lack thereof. Science. Code. Time. Life.
There was a time when I wanted love. Now I want family. The more I think about death--after the incident when I saw Renie staring at the ceiling, unconscious--I realize Renie, my parents, they're all going to be gone before I am. I won't have family left--unless I have kids. I don't want to die alone. I don't even care if I'm married or have a partner in my life. I just want more.
Passing phase? Who knows. I know that once I have kids, I won't have time for my own life. And I want so much for myself that it would be impractical, impossible.
This is like hormones on a grander scale. This is instinct. Evolution--or lack thereof. Science. Code. Time. Life.