Hmmm...
A few things have happened this week...
~The concert went wonderfully!! It was so exciting to get up there and perform my song and help Lisa with hers! We made the main picture on the info page and it stayed up all day! I listened to the CD that we made and I'm not too thrilled about it, but it is my song recorded.
~I'm having issues with the self-image and self-worth thing again...for some reason, I just can't shake it. It usually happens for a day or two each month, but it has now gone on for 2 1/2 weeks. I don't know if it's because of the fact that I am overwhelmed with school and life in general or if there is something deeper there that I'm not seeing...or refuse to see.
~I don't know what to give up for Lent.
~I find it so ironic how I can be surrounded by people and yet feel so completely alone.
~I hate how the only thing I'm good at, I am struggling with. Music is the only thing that I have that I feel like I can excel in, but I struggle constantly with it. JJ told me that it's only because I'm trying to better myself with it, but I don't know if I believe him completely.
~I'm realizing how much I miss home and my friends and family there. I got a message from Spamer the other day that made me smile. I hate that I hardly ever have time to talk to anybody that I don't see on a regular basis. I feel like I'm losing touch of reality because of it sometimes.
~I just miss the days when all I had to worry about was petty things. I miss not feeling stupid after worrying about said petty things. I miss the days where I had time to do homework. Nowadays, I don't even have time to do that...heh.
~I contemplated going part time the other day but quickly realized that I can't do that because of insurance reasons and stuff like that. Also, if I went part time, I don't think I'd get done with this degree any time soon...granted I feel like that now, but this would actually be the case if I did that.
~I am getting burned out from school and I don't know what to do about it. It's a good thing summer's coming up...if it wasn't, I think I would end up pulling all my hair out.
~I hate how I let one area of my life affect another area. If I'm not feeling good about myself or if I just feel like I'm at my wit's end, it affects something else...which, in turn, comes back and makes me feel worse about myself.
Oh well...guess I'm done getting stuff out for now...forgot how theraputic this is...
~The concert went wonderfully!! It was so exciting to get up there and perform my song and help Lisa with hers! We made the main picture on the info page and it stayed up all day! I listened to the CD that we made and I'm not too thrilled about it, but it is my song recorded.
~I'm having issues with the self-image and self-worth thing again...for some reason, I just can't shake it. It usually happens for a day or two each month, but it has now gone on for 2 1/2 weeks. I don't know if it's because of the fact that I am overwhelmed with school and life in general or if there is something deeper there that I'm not seeing...or refuse to see.
~I don't know what to give up for Lent.
~I find it so ironic how I can be surrounded by people and yet feel so completely alone.
~I hate how the only thing I'm good at, I am struggling with. Music is the only thing that I have that I feel like I can excel in, but I struggle constantly with it. JJ told me that it's only because I'm trying to better myself with it, but I don't know if I believe him completely.
~I'm realizing how much I miss home and my friends and family there. I got a message from Spamer the other day that made me smile. I hate that I hardly ever have time to talk to anybody that I don't see on a regular basis. I feel like I'm losing touch of reality because of it sometimes.
~I just miss the days when all I had to worry about was petty things. I miss not feeling stupid after worrying about said petty things. I miss the days where I had time to do homework. Nowadays, I don't even have time to do that...heh.
~I contemplated going part time the other day but quickly realized that I can't do that because of insurance reasons and stuff like that. Also, if I went part time, I don't think I'd get done with this degree any time soon...granted I feel like that now, but this would actually be the case if I did that.
~I am getting burned out from school and I don't know what to do about it. It's a good thing summer's coming up...if it wasn't, I think I would end up pulling all my hair out.
~I hate how I let one area of my life affect another area. If I'm not feeling good about myself or if I just feel like I'm at my wit's end, it affects something else...which, in turn, comes back and makes me feel worse about myself.
Oh well...guess I'm done getting stuff out for now...forgot how theraputic this is...