fuck me and then let me die
okay, sorry for the lack of updates; personal stuff.
I'll keep the bitching to bullet points.
GDMc (Granddaddy) is a dumbass; i don't like him. He married a stupid woman whom i often refer to as TheFunSucker. She sucks the fun out of the world. Said woman tried to Baker act GDMc. in other words, she tried to have him committed. So, GDMc's marriage is now in the crapper.
Consequence, GDMc is now fucking living here. FUCK! Fuck! Fuuuuuuuuuck! (Please note: i neither respect nor like my grandfather.)
In all of this mess is UncleFunButStupid. He can't stay sober or keep a job. The cops of several counties know him by name. He's very sweet and fun, but dumb as shit and useless. I feel bad for him, but after a whole year of his ass screwing around with the love, attention, time, patience, financial help, and even give him a place to live AND STILL DOESN'T HAVE A JOB, fuck him.
UncleFunButStupid is now also living here. Again: fuck! Fuck! FUUUCK!
Both GDMc and UncleFunButStupid are related to my father. Each time something bad happens, Dad will immediately help anyone who needs it however he can. After a year of helping Uncle, now he is also helping GDMc. This is placing a strain on my dad, and by default, my mother, and then too, their marriage.
Mom is always tired. I fucking wonder why?!!?
Dad is always stressed. I fucking wonder why?!!?
GDMc keeps doing little things that upset me. Again, little things. Nothing that earns him a chair to the head, but still... annoying as all hell.
All of these things make me feel like a prisoner in my home.
Each day, i linger at work, lamenting coming home. and when i do arrive, i go into my room and just stay in there until dinner.
I can't have a conversation with my parents unless GDMc is away from the house.
Mom, Dad, and myself are all worried how long this will last. If UncleFunButStupid is anything to go by, this is NOT the retirement that my family had planned for.
I'm worried for my family.
I'm afraid to leave.
I earned my license and have a potential job lined up; do i go for it?
Ultimately, i know that i go. I am that selfish and I've seen what happens when you don't go for your dreams. i don't want to be tied down to this place.
but there will likely never be a day wherein i don't feel such damnably pity for my parents.
Aaaaand that's what's been going on and why i haven't been posting. I've just been too wrapped up in all of this mess. But now that I've had time to process the crazy from the stupid, i can come back to something akin to a life.
Wish me luck. (And a full clip.)
I'll keep the bitching to bullet points.
GDMc (Granddaddy) is a dumbass; i don't like him. He married a stupid woman whom i often refer to as TheFunSucker. She sucks the fun out of the world. Said woman tried to Baker act GDMc. in other words, she tried to have him committed. So, GDMc's marriage is now in the crapper.
Consequence, GDMc is now fucking living here. FUCK! Fuck! Fuuuuuuuuuck! (Please note: i neither respect nor like my grandfather.)
In all of this mess is UncleFunButStupid. He can't stay sober or keep a job. The cops of several counties know him by name. He's very sweet and fun, but dumb as shit and useless. I feel bad for him, but after a whole year of his ass screwing around with the love, attention, time, patience, financial help, and even give him a place to live AND STILL DOESN'T HAVE A JOB, fuck him.
UncleFunButStupid is now also living here. Again: fuck! Fuck! FUUUCK!
Both GDMc and UncleFunButStupid are related to my father. Each time something bad happens, Dad will immediately help anyone who needs it however he can. After a year of helping Uncle, now he is also helping GDMc. This is placing a strain on my dad, and by default, my mother, and then too, their marriage.
Mom is always tired. I fucking wonder why?!!?
Dad is always stressed. I fucking wonder why?!!?
GDMc keeps doing little things that upset me. Again, little things. Nothing that earns him a chair to the head, but still... annoying as all hell.
All of these things make me feel like a prisoner in my home.
Each day, i linger at work, lamenting coming home. and when i do arrive, i go into my room and just stay in there until dinner.
I can't have a conversation with my parents unless GDMc is away from the house.
Mom, Dad, and myself are all worried how long this will last. If UncleFunButStupid is anything to go by, this is NOT the retirement that my family had planned for.
I'm worried for my family.
I'm afraid to leave.
I earned my license and have a potential job lined up; do i go for it?
Ultimately, i know that i go. I am that selfish and I've seen what happens when you don't go for your dreams. i don't want to be tied down to this place.
but there will likely never be a day wherein i don't feel such damnably pity for my parents.
Aaaaand that's what's been going on and why i haven't been posting. I've just been too wrapped up in all of this mess. But now that I've had time to process the crazy from the stupid, i can come back to something akin to a life.
Wish me luck. (And a full clip.)