Sam Kelly 8/10/91-6/23/07
Read this, and then my rant. Otherwise it won't make sense.
...I've Finally gotten the Courage to get online and talk...
...
and now I don't know what to say.
Yes I do. I want to say that I'm angry. I want to say that I'm hurting. A lot. I want to say that I hope the other driver gets what they deserve. I hope that Sam is in a better place. I hope that Josh is not too hard on himself.
I wish I could have been there. I don't know what I would have done, but anything else would be better than feeling like this. I wish I could cry about Sam, about Alex, about the whole fucking thing. I wish I could drink this shit away.
I want to feel better. I want to make everyone else feel better. I want Josh to stop blaming himself. I want to fall asleep, wake up and have it all be a dream.
I need to start eating. I need to stop smoking so much. I need to let go of all the hate I've ever felt towards anyone.
thank you.
...I've Finally gotten the Courage to get online and talk...
...
and now I don't know what to say.
Yes I do. I want to say that I'm angry. I want to say that I'm hurting. A lot. I want to say that I hope the other driver gets what they deserve. I hope that Sam is in a better place. I hope that Josh is not too hard on himself.
I wish I could have been there. I don't know what I would have done, but anything else would be better than feeling like this. I wish I could cry about Sam, about Alex, about the whole fucking thing. I wish I could drink this shit away.
I want to feel better. I want to make everyone else feel better. I want Josh to stop blaming himself. I want to fall asleep, wake up and have it all be a dream.
I need to start eating. I need to stop smoking so much. I need to let go of all the hate I've ever felt towards anyone.
thank you.