all i wanna do is hold you close and steal a little more time
i'm not a mushy girl. but today i'm breaking my rules and gushing. blame it on seeing "going the distance" (i cried) or watching the first couple episodes of season 2 of gossip girl, but i feel so in love right now. it's okay if you want to vomit and discontinue reading. but i'm going to keep writing :) it's pretty overdue.
my stressful summer is over and now i'm back in the groove for school/fall work and it's such a relief. I can't even lie and say that hasn't helped jesses & I's situation. this summer we fought more than we ever had (which wasn't much, but it just wan't us) and it's lead to a few frustrating nights and even a few tears. we've never had to try before and this summer was pressing with different schedules, plenty of family issues & the passing away of my grandpa, and literally, pure exhaustion. now i feel closer to him than i've ever been. he's my best friend & i'm beyond crazy about him.
to me, he's been everything i've imagined but so much more, in so many different surprising ways. and i'm one lucky girl and i tell myself that all the time. He's beyond close with my best friends and roommates and he's transitioning with my super apprehensive family really well (even though it's been 14 months). He listens, he jokes, and puts me in my place when i need it. he's always super passionate in whatever -work,school,me?- he does and it's amazing to be alongside that. allie said it best to me today, "jesse gives so much trust and respect to others that he doesn't put up with bullshit." basically he makes me a better person. and i try to always remember that.
you know those couples that people can see how much they love each other? in a total not nauseas way? i want that to be us. and i know that's us. i've been told thats us. and that's one of the best compliments ever, and i only get half the credit.
we're perfect one-on-one, pretty perfect with everyone else except with a select few (okay, select one person), and i'm still trying to fit in with his family, but that basically comes from having absolutely no opportunities. labor day weekend has been exactly what i needed, and i didn't have to "compete" because quite frankly, i have nothing to worry about because i know i'm better than the twin's g/f. she's a doormat and all she does is bitch about her boyfriend in private, where here i am doing the opposite. sounds shallow, but it puts me at ease. our few fights & frustrations are never about 'us' it's about other people meaning his twin and his girlfriend, etc etc. and that's a good thing.
we've worked our way to this level and it's been pretty effortless. everything about him is effortless to me, and that just makes me want to try harder.
my stressful summer is over and now i'm back in the groove for school/fall work and it's such a relief. I can't even lie and say that hasn't helped jesses & I's situation. this summer we fought more than we ever had (which wasn't much, but it just wan't us) and it's lead to a few frustrating nights and even a few tears. we've never had to try before and this summer was pressing with different schedules, plenty of family issues & the passing away of my grandpa, and literally, pure exhaustion. now i feel closer to him than i've ever been. he's my best friend & i'm beyond crazy about him.
to me, he's been everything i've imagined but so much more, in so many different surprising ways. and i'm one lucky girl and i tell myself that all the time. He's beyond close with my best friends and roommates and he's transitioning with my super apprehensive family really well (even though it's been 14 months). He listens, he jokes, and puts me in my place when i need it. he's always super passionate in whatever -work,school,me?- he does and it's amazing to be alongside that. allie said it best to me today, "jesse gives so much trust and respect to others that he doesn't put up with bullshit." basically he makes me a better person. and i try to always remember that.
you know those couples that people can see how much they love each other? in a total not nauseas way? i want that to be us. and i know that's us. i've been told thats us. and that's one of the best compliments ever, and i only get half the credit.
we're perfect one-on-one, pretty perfect with everyone else except with a select few (okay, select one person), and i'm still trying to fit in with his family, but that basically comes from having absolutely no opportunities. labor day weekend has been exactly what i needed, and i didn't have to "compete" because quite frankly, i have nothing to worry about because i know i'm better than the twin's g/f. she's a doormat and all she does is bitch about her boyfriend in private, where here i am doing the opposite. sounds shallow, but it puts me at ease. our few fights & frustrations are never about 'us' it's about other people meaning his twin and his girlfriend, etc etc. and that's a good thing.
we've worked our way to this level and it's been pretty effortless. everything about him is effortless to me, and that just makes me want to try harder.