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HEY, BBS :DD Okay, so.. I'm here to post something again, with regards to everyday life :p LOL. Uhh.. Let's start with the Christmas thingy.. Honestly, I don't even feel that it's going to be 3 days before the holiday season comes. It's like, an ordinary.. day? For me? Ugh :| Honestly, 2009 has been the VERY WORST SHIT YEAR OF MY EFFIN' LIFE. Srsly :(( I mean, with so much depression going on, with so much regrets to keep and bury deep inside my heart.. It's very heartbreaking. Really. I enjoy 2008 more because of that year, I have reached the peak of happiness in my life. I had so much friends, so much super-fun things to deal with, and of course, the school year that has been the happiest moments of my life. SOPHOMORE YEAR :> And that is why, I NEVER CHANGE with regards to them, my former classmates.. Because they are the only ones who could see the real me. But now? JUNIOR YEAR? Ohmygosh, so much madness deep inside of me TT_TT I even reached a major breakdown and depression XX_XX
But frankly, there are many stuffs I have to thank for 2009. Like, the reunion we had yesterday.. You know, with my sophomore friends. We had so much fun, I had reached the peek of happiness again yesterday =))))) And, I also thank 2009's moral lessons; because of the regrets I've had, it made me stronger, and it made me change a bit - from being immature, I've grown a lot and learned a lot. I also thank 2009 because of the opportunity to know and to spazz about Kpop, which is my most cherished fandom this year. So, thankyou 2009. BUT FUCKYOU, TOO :X :X :X
I want 2009 to end with me smiling and grinning like an idiot. I miss the days where, I could laugh so hard because of the simplest things, not faking smiles towards people. I want to smile so warmly, so that the next year would be, I hope, a better one for me. No more sadness and depression ahead, no more heartaches and pain.. No more bitterness. Just pure happiness ♥
But before this year ends, of course, I want to feel the Christmas spirit first before anything else. I have a LONG LIST for Christmas, and here we go:
- Samsung Corby phone. I lost my phone last Wednesday :(( So I want to buy a new one. It has to be green *Taecyeon-biased* or pink *Nichkhun-biased, too.*
- Ipod Accessories. Okay, so currently I can't seem to find my Ipod in my house so hopefully it pops up :)) I want to have a new charger for that, and earphones. I MISS BEING A RADIOHEAD ADDICT.
- Kpop CD's for sale here in the Philippines. As of now, I only have SNSD and SHINEE's mini album T_T I want to buy Super Junior and Big Bang CD's.
- A new digital camera. I NEEEEEEEED ONE SO BAD. My current digicam sucks, bigtime so I have to upgrade it a bit.
- NEW CLOTHES TO WEAR, NEW SHOES TO BUY. ACCESSORIES. I'm very into fashion, so I need to buy new clothes. They're my addiction, too. Mostly I want Kpop fashion sense.
- CL's SHADES. I dunno why, but I really do have a girl crush on Lee Chaerin ♥ No, I'm obssessed with her XX___XX And so, what I dream of right now is to have a mini-shrine of JUST PURELY CL. Nothing more, nothing less.
- Nike Dunks. Or..okay. converse shoes will do.
- Bag. I need bags that suits my clothes, because.. I'm a prefectionist when it comes to fashion, atleast.
That is all ♥ ♥ ♥ Grant me one of these, and I will love you for eternity :]
Okay, so Imma go end this post now, since I am currently watching Heaven's Postman. watch it too, bb. Jaejoong is in it :)))) Of course you know what to do, right? :D And, listen to KAT-TUN's White Xmas :> It'll give you warmth during the cold days, I swear ♥
And so.. guys, do me favor. When December 25 arrives, please.. DON'T WAIT FOR SANTA CLAUS. INSTEAD, LOOK FOR JESUS CHRIST ♥ It's his birthday, after all; not Santa's. :| Enjoy the holidays, everyone. SPREAD THE LOVE!! This coiming season, spend it with the most important persons in your life, your FAMILY ♥
Have a merry, wonderful Christmas! :)