thanks allot kelly
i'm not a bad person....really i am not. kelly totally dimmed me out yesterday. ok there is this guy has this huge crush on me. i have known this for a while now. he is a cool guy and very sweet but i have never really been interested mainly because i was with andrew up until may so it wasnt going to happen. there are a few other reasons like he has 2 kids by 2 different women and he is only 22 years old. ward and him are boys so i know allot stuff he has done as far as females. i really dont feel like being another noch on the his bed post. i have never lead him on or flirted with him but i am friendly towards him. i'm friendly to everyone. after andrew and i broke up i asked ward what did he think i should do. as far as my crush. should i go out with him. ward was like my brother and i trust his advise especially when it comes to guys and how to deal with them. he told me that wasnt worth it and he didnt think it was a good idea. i said ok. not too long after that chris asked me out. i turned him down at first but when he asked again the next week i thought what the hell. now we're dating. i dont really know where we stand as far being a couple right now but i like him allot. i am very hesitant to tell anyone besides my friends about chris. its just rumors start flying to fast here and i dont want a possible good thing get ruined by stupid shit besides i didnt want to tell my crush because i didnt want to hurt his feelings. he has has been persistent in asking me out, like every day and i always say no....finally my crush asked kelly if i have a boyfriend still and she told him i did but a new one, not andrew. he called me saying he couldnt believe i would do that. then today he called me again saying he was in love with me. he was so upset, i dont care about him. basically making me feel like shit. its doesnt help that chris is white. i shouldnt have to explain myself to him. he is not my boyfriend. what do u guys think? .... i gotta get back to sorting mail.