the subject is subject to the mercy (or lack thereof) of the subject whichit subjects it'sself to
--is is in reference to charlie's entry pertaining to death--
for as long as I can remember, until just recently, i was terrified by thoughts of death... usually, it wouldn't bother me too much... but when i would actually think about in depth, it would haunt my every thought until i either found distraction or sleep. I guess, to an extent, i am still a bit disturbed by the concept that my existence will, someday, come to an end. But now when i have these thoughts, i have a place i can go to escape the anxiety.
In this place I an able realize all that I have achieved, and how so many others have missed such opportunities, for some reason or another. I realize how full my life has been of the things that i hold most sacred. I have experienced love more true than i ever imagined i could feel, and i have been loved in return, more than i ever thought anyone could love me; by friends and family whom I would consider no sacrifice too great. I have seen inspiration than the average person will ever see... I have achieved a spirituality that only the most blessed soul could hope for...
I weigh my life, not on a scale of quantity, but one of quality, and thus; i have determined that my existence has been so rich(however short it may be, up to this point), that i honestly feel as if i could die happily.
That isn't to say that i have reached the point where i long for death, as i understand many people do when they reach a certain degree of success. there is so much that i haven't done yet, but I do believe a day will come that i will see death as a welcome transition to eternal rest!
A lesson lesrned through experience is (in my opinion) an increase in power, and i hope to stay on this earth to become as powerful as i may! but still, one day my death will come, and,now, i am able to except that with no skepticism!
but today... i am here an' i get to live every day of my life with some of the most awesome people i can imagine... and i thank every person who reads this for being part of my life and making it that much more incredible of an experience!!!! ^_^see you guys later, take care, safe journey, and gods bless ^_~
oh... heh... P.S. guess where i am right now... go ahead... guess... I'M IN PENNSYLVANIA!!! ^_^ how freaking crazy is that? the drive has been crazy... i saw Atlanta, Ga for the first time ever. It was insane! an some other places that i have never been. Charlie is learning how to drive on snow (which, by the way, he had never seen befor until today! isn't that awesome?)tomorrow we are driving to New Jersy to see Charlie's Uncle and then we're all going to visit New York... these several days have been really awesome and we're gonna have some more good ones comin' up... i'll tell you all about it later, and so (as i'm sure) will charlie. so, untill then, you guys take care an' stuff... luv ya all! and thanks again!
for as long as I can remember, until just recently, i was terrified by thoughts of death... usually, it wouldn't bother me too much... but when i would actually think about in depth, it would haunt my every thought until i either found distraction or sleep. I guess, to an extent, i am still a bit disturbed by the concept that my existence will, someday, come to an end. But now when i have these thoughts, i have a place i can go to escape the anxiety.
In this place I an able realize all that I have achieved, and how so many others have missed such opportunities, for some reason or another. I realize how full my life has been of the things that i hold most sacred. I have experienced love more true than i ever imagined i could feel, and i have been loved in return, more than i ever thought anyone could love me; by friends and family whom I would consider no sacrifice too great. I have seen inspiration than the average person will ever see... I have achieved a spirituality that only the most blessed soul could hope for...
I weigh my life, not on a scale of quantity, but one of quality, and thus; i have determined that my existence has been so rich(however short it may be, up to this point), that i honestly feel as if i could die happily.
That isn't to say that i have reached the point where i long for death, as i understand many people do when they reach a certain degree of success. there is so much that i haven't done yet, but I do believe a day will come that i will see death as a welcome transition to eternal rest!
A lesson lesrned through experience is (in my opinion) an increase in power, and i hope to stay on this earth to become as powerful as i may! but still, one day my death will come, and,now, i am able to except that with no skepticism!
but today... i am here an' i get to live every day of my life with some of the most awesome people i can imagine... and i thank every person who reads this for being part of my life and making it that much more incredible of an experience!!!! ^_^see you guys later, take care, safe journey, and gods bless ^_~
oh... heh... P.S. guess where i am right now... go ahead... guess... I'M IN PENNSYLVANIA!!! ^_^ how freaking crazy is that? the drive has been crazy... i saw Atlanta, Ga for the first time ever. It was insane! an some other places that i have never been. Charlie is learning how to drive on snow (which, by the way, he had never seen befor until today! isn't that awesome?)tomorrow we are driving to New Jersy to see Charlie's Uncle and then we're all going to visit New York... these several days have been really awesome and we're gonna have some more good ones comin' up... i'll tell you all about it later, and so (as i'm sure) will charlie. so, untill then, you guys take care an' stuff... luv ya all! and thanks again!