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Ok,so ive noticed that i havent recently posted anything on LJ or Myspace. So i think im going to do so now and if your reading this then i didnt get to bored and just delete what i started to write.
Alright, so a lot of things have happened since my last post and im not talking about the one i posted just to get ahead of Jenny in the friends section. My mind is drowning in a sea of events from the past month or so. It was pronounced DOA (Dead on Arrival) right before this post. So ive noticed alot of problems that me(Myself) has/have been having for a while. (excuse the Alternate words im bored and need to entertain myslef.) Late last night/ Early this morning i came to a lot of sudden and life defining conclussions. and here they are:
1) Im an Alcholic (i think i spelled that right)
Several Nights a week i drink myself into oblivion (bad ass game BTW) to escape this shit hole of a place i currently reside and the other people that occupy it. In doing so i realize that i have become something i said id never become (dependent of anything but myslef).
2) with the exception of a couple instances im a loser with very little friends which ive concluded i could care less about this fact. The more people you know the harder it is to stay close to em all and the more problems that are brought into your live VIA Drama. Id rather have only a few really close friends that i can keep up with and i can deal with their drama alot easier that that of a large group.
3) I discovered that something seems to be missing in my life. as of yet im unable to determine what that is and why it is bothering me. this is because of not enough time being sober where i can think straight. which is something im slowly going to change.
4) i realized exactly how many times i have been fucked over by people i care about. whether it is from them taking things from me, me helping them out and expecting the favor to be returned, me going out of my way to do something with them and after paying for it they cancel leaving me to foot the bill, people lying to me about events so they can benefit form me helping them. From now on to combat these problems Robert is now removing those that cause these problems from the equation of his life.
5) I COMPLETELY UTTERLY DESPISE AND WISH DEATH UPON ANY MILITARY RECRUITER AND THE SERVICE INWHICH THEY SERVE. FUCK THE MARINE CORP
6) My phone is a peice of shit and keeps dying.
7)I really need to get cable or my own internet connection so i can keep myself entertained.
8) i need to get paid more. with as many hours a day i work and ho wmuch i get paid it averages to $4.38/hr and for all of you who make more than me with less hours. FUCK OFF
9) i really need to get out more. I have spent almost all day in my room and have gotten nothign done but acheive my goal of 15 hrs of sleep.
10) my room really stinks and needs to be cleaned but im to lazy and tired or drunk to clean it.
These have been my conclussions and to them i have only one response.
ARE WE DEAD YET? IF NOT WHY ARENT WE?
Alright, so a lot of things have happened since my last post and im not talking about the one i posted just to get ahead of Jenny in the friends section. My mind is drowning in a sea of events from the past month or so. It was pronounced DOA (Dead on Arrival) right before this post. So ive noticed alot of problems that me(Myself) has/have been having for a while. (excuse the Alternate words im bored and need to entertain myslef.) Late last night/ Early this morning i came to a lot of sudden and life defining conclussions. and here they are:
1) Im an Alcholic (i think i spelled that right)
Several Nights a week i drink myself into oblivion (bad ass game BTW) to escape this shit hole of a place i currently reside and the other people that occupy it. In doing so i realize that i have become something i said id never become (dependent of anything but myslef).
2) with the exception of a couple instances im a loser with very little friends which ive concluded i could care less about this fact. The more people you know the harder it is to stay close to em all and the more problems that are brought into your live VIA Drama. Id rather have only a few really close friends that i can keep up with and i can deal with their drama alot easier that that of a large group.
3) I discovered that something seems to be missing in my life. as of yet im unable to determine what that is and why it is bothering me. this is because of not enough time being sober where i can think straight. which is something im slowly going to change.
4) i realized exactly how many times i have been fucked over by people i care about. whether it is from them taking things from me, me helping them out and expecting the favor to be returned, me going out of my way to do something with them and after paying for it they cancel leaving me to foot the bill, people lying to me about events so they can benefit form me helping them. From now on to combat these problems Robert is now removing those that cause these problems from the equation of his life.
5) I COMPLETELY UTTERLY DESPISE AND WISH DEATH UPON ANY MILITARY RECRUITER AND THE SERVICE INWHICH THEY SERVE. FUCK THE MARINE CORP
6) My phone is a peice of shit and keeps dying.
7)I really need to get cable or my own internet connection so i can keep myself entertained.
8) i need to get paid more. with as many hours a day i work and ho wmuch i get paid it averages to $4.38/hr and for all of you who make more than me with less hours. FUCK OFF
9) i really need to get out more. I have spent almost all day in my room and have gotten nothign done but acheive my goal of 15 hrs of sleep.
10) my room really stinks and needs to be cleaned but im to lazy and tired or drunk to clean it.
These have been my conclussions and to them i have only one response.
ARE WE DEAD YET? IF NOT WHY ARENT WE?