Drunken babbling
My last post on myspace was labeled "wits end" and thats exactly where im at currenly. i think i am 1 problem short of complete psycosematic shutdown. Im to the point that i just dont really dont care about whats going on. im so fucking desensitized to all the fucking bullshit that no matter how bad it is i just shrug my shoulders and carry on like nothing happened. When something goes on i just dont take notice and i just say "oh well" I hear of so many peoples problems and hear people complaining about their life and all i can say is "sucks to be you" I dont know exactly how long ive been like this but it was just brought to my attention when i cracked jokes at the dumbass marine who attempted suicide when he was all "poor me... i hate my life..." But i have to say there have been some very good things ive been laughing at recently besides that dumbass. My roommate that is cheating on his girl friend back home just broke up with her because he couldnt see himself with her and told her it was her fault for not wanting to commit their relationship. Thats not the good part, the good part is he just found out he got a STD from one of his bitches here in el paso! ha what poetic justice. When he goes to piss i can hear him almost yell from the pain and i laugh my ass off everytime. That son of a bitch got what he deserves. I crack jokes on him all the time about it and he wants to kick my ass but i told him if he tried id hit him in his nuts so hard he'd never piss without pain again. Wow what an asshole i have become. There is plans for us to be restricted to the barracks next weekend cuz someone fucked up yet again. i dont think anyone here besides me can go a weekend without being stupid. But i dont even care about that i see it as helping me. If i cant leave that means i cant go out in town and blow my $$. Cuz im limited on the $$ due to buying a unused, non refundable, non changeable airline ticket. but that doesnt even affect me cuz if i didnt blow it on that i would have just bought yet another stupid thing that would entertain me for all of a few hours.
I bought STarwars: Galaxies and paid for a 2 month suscription(39.99/game 14.95/month) im bored with it and didnt play it aftre the 2nd week. Also bought X3- Reunion and played it for 4 days and got bored(49.99/game).Then i bought Starwats: Empire at war played it last night, beat it and am now bored (49.99/game) Also i have bought:
Quake 4(49.99)
Dungeon Seige II (39.99)
also i have bought some borinbg ass PS2 games and other shit
I added up from receipts i have found and i have blown well over $1.6k on stupid shit here. I make verylittle from the Marine Corps. it comes out to $42.48/Day and i work 8-10hrs/day thats less than minimum wage. I cant beleive how stupid i have been and thats why i live in my room and will rarely spend $$ from now on. excuse the oddness of my post im kindda drunk and still drinking so this is in a flow of consiousness(or lack of really soon)
I bought STarwars: Galaxies and paid for a 2 month suscription(39.99/game 14.95/month) im bored with it and didnt play it aftre the 2nd week. Also bought X3- Reunion and played it for 4 days and got bored(49.99/game).Then i bought Starwats: Empire at war played it last night, beat it and am now bored (49.99/game) Also i have bought:
Quake 4(49.99)
Dungeon Seige II (39.99)
also i have bought some borinbg ass PS2 games and other shit
I added up from receipts i have found and i have blown well over $1.6k on stupid shit here. I make verylittle from the Marine Corps. it comes out to $42.48/Day and i work 8-10hrs/day thats less than minimum wage. I cant beleive how stupid i have been and thats why i live in my room and will rarely spend $$ from now on. excuse the oddness of my post im kindda drunk and still drinking so this is in a flow of consiousness(or lack of really soon)