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how it seems like i only wright in this thing to tell someone something who doesn't look at this. i'm almost postitive i'm done with this but i'm not sure. i never am. i do like just typing and feeling like i have done something bye hearing all the keys as i type some long entry but i never do that anymore. but yeah what the hell. lately i've been thinkin of what defines me as a person. i know who i am and what i want but lately someone will ask me what i have been up too or what i have been doing and i'm like nothing or just the samething i told them last time. i don't really what anything or anyone. i love surtain people and i care for others. i enjoy my life and i know where i'm going. i mean the person i love i will refuse until its right but she will never do that for me or even spend the time to realize that and she will not read this. i understand that. about the people who ask me how i am or whats been going on. i know those are the people who don't know whats going on or what i've been doing. they probabley don't care all that much but some do. the ones i left behind. or left me behind. the entire reason i started this is because of someone who left me. someone i loved. i still love. but i know she doesn't even ask how i am. nor i to her. its the way we grow up i guess. we move of away from the things we onced cared for. its just the same problems in different situations. thats why i deal with them now. i wise woman once told me that i am very wise and also that i will be careful of those i let into my life. i am. she prayed over me and saw that. i remember that perfectly. mostly beacuse i agreed with her alot. i spend most of my time thinking now adays. which i stoped for a while and now i'm back. i know now its safe. i can think inside my head without bringing my self down. or thinking it was my fault. or let someone make me think this way. you know one of the things i like about wrighting like this is. its out there for lots of people to read but i know everyone who will and at this moment i know that its not about them anymore. i'm wrighting for me. i just like to see what they will say. they probabley won't say anything.
lately i've been giving advice and no one seems to be taking it. i've decided i won't anymore. not unless they ask which they never do but they always think its good but they never take it. its a same.
i exist beyond this world
lately i've been giving advice and no one seems to be taking it. i've decided i won't anymore. not unless they ask which they never do but they always think its good but they never take it. its a same.
i exist beyond this world