hey hunny, i have no idea why i'm posting this and i guess it's one of those things. reassurance i guess incase u can't hear me talk to u at night. i don't wanna piss anyone off so i'm posting on ur livejournal cuz no one checks this shit anymore. i wanted to let u know that sonny's in jail right now. followin in ur footsteps i guess. i swear to god i've done so much worrying about u two. if one's not in trouble the other is. i miss u so much u know. i think about u all the time. i keep thinking about all the times we could've hung out and we didn't and how much i wish i could go back. i remembered what ur hair felt like the other day and now i can't get in out of my head. i remeber how it felt to touch the back of ur head and ur ears. i don't know why i thought about it but i did. i don't know what to do with myself. everyone keeps saying it was better that i didn't see u in the hospital but i dont feel like it is. i still want to say goodbye because it doesn't seem real to me even now. i look at ur pictures and i don't feel sad because i feel like ur going to be home when i go back for christmas. i have to tell myself that u won't. i have to remind myself everyday that ur not here because if i don't i'll still want to call u. remember back in panama when we were driving back to destin? i was singing my heart out to the radio. i'm glad we got that time together. i'm glad i went. fuck why did u leave? u weren't finished living yet. i wasn't ready for u to go. no one was. now ur birthday's coming up and i'm depressed. this whole week has sucked. u were such a huge part of my life and ur gone. sonny loves u so much. he calls crying sometimes and it makes me cry then the whole rest of the day is ruined. i could fuckin kill myself for letting us grow apart. we could have been hanging out so much more. i love u with all my heart and i miss u so much. it wasn't suppose to be like this. when we grew up i was gonna call u and see how u were and what u were doing and when i talk about my first i was gonna say yeah robert he's down ur GA with a wife and kids. not like this. it was not suppose to be like this! kra
i have no idea why i'm posting this and i guess it's one of those things. reassurance i guess incase u can't hear me talk to u at night. i don't wanna piss anyone off so i'm posting on ur livejournal cuz no one checks this shit anymore. i wanted to let u know that sonny's in jail right now. followin in ur footsteps i guess. i swear to god i've done so much worrying about u two. if one's not in trouble the other is. i miss u so much u know. i think about u all the time. i keep thinking about all the times we could've hung out and we didn't and how much i wish i could go back. i remembered what ur hair felt like the other day and now i can't get in out of my head. i remeber how it felt to touch the back of ur head and ur ears. i don't know why i thought about it but i did. i don't know what to do with myself. everyone keeps saying it was better that i didn't see u in the hospital but i dont feel like it is. i still want to say goodbye because it doesn't seem real to me even now. i look at ur pictures and i don't feel sad because i feel like ur going to be home when i go back for christmas. i have to tell myself that u won't. i have to remind myself everyday that ur not here because if i don't i'll still want to call u. remember back in panama when we were driving back to destin? i was singing my heart out to the radio. i'm glad we got that time together. i'm glad i went. fuck why did u leave? u weren't finished living yet. i wasn't ready for u to go. no one was. now ur birthday's coming up and i'm depressed. this whole week has sucked. u were such a huge part of my life and ur gone. sonny loves u so much. he calls crying sometimes and it makes me cry then the whole rest of the day is ruined. i could fuckin kill myself for letting us grow apart. we could have been hanging out so much more. i love u with all my heart and i miss u so much. it wasn't suppose to be like this. when we grew up i was gonna call u and see how u were and what u were doing and when i talk about my first i was gonna say yeah robert he's down ur GA with a wife and kids. not like this. it was not suppose to be like this! kra
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