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9/4 so I have the worst headache i have had in a long ass time. Probably sitting here starring at the computer isnt helping but i feel there are some things i need to say that may help at least make my brain stop hurting.
Ya know i think ill start with the good news
My dad is finally getting married! Yess hes only been engaged for like 6 years. They were going to get married in Florida but they couldnt find a way for me to get there and stay for more then a few hours so that wasn't going to work. SO they are going to get married in OC so that I can go. Which of course is perfectly fine with me! Honestly i dont think i would have been that hurt if i wasnt there. I always wanted their wedding to be in our backyard tho.
9/5 yes it is taking me multiple days to actually write a few paragraphs. I still have that headache its not helping
other good news a friend of my is pregnant. which if it was any one else would be bad news but I am fully confidant is her abilities to be a mother at this time. Actually I am excited. Haha probably way more then she is for good reason.
School Update...5 classes 17credits right now. May be adding another 2 credit tomorrow. As every other first month of school my entire life I am both fully confident in my abilities to handle the classes and hating them at the same time, mostly because they bore me. Well not all of them this year. Biological Basis of Behavior and Developmental Disabilities can keep my interest pretty well, i know this by my notes compared to my doodles for each day and well Digital Design + Layout right now we are doing lame stuff but i think it'll get better and more useful soon. Anatomy is stuff i kinda know/should remember from high school and isn't that exciting but I really want to know it I think it will be helpful in my career and just in life in general. And I'm only taking Psyc and Science cuz I have to. Its about how to do research and stuff which im not all that interested in but have to know. And the class I might add is Bioterrorism, I met the teacher today he said he wants a psyc major in his class and it only meets once a week for two hours and doesn't sound that hard, and itll knock out some more of those electives so I might do it i'm still deciding. The combination of any two of these classes is probably more work then I had last semester, but this semester I am more capable of handling it for many reasons, including its Fall and I do better in fall. lol.
Work update. During the summer, work sucked but it wasnt as bad as it is now...i dont know what happened but i have contemplated walking out and quitting on more then one occasion. I wanna quit so bad, I think 4 years is long enough. I just need to find another job, and im trying just no luck yet. YET
But on to the rest of my life. After I wrote the last entry about not having a life, Drew, Will and The roommates moved in! I now *when i am not at school or work* have a life. The week before school it was because of Drew and Will and Rudi and them because i partied with them basically every night. It was fun, I miss that. But it is now due to the roommates! I love my roommates. Kim was here a week early so we got to know each other and shes awesome and I knew Cloe and Megan before...Kinda. they are both nice and actually different then i thought which is good. We have roommate bonding for the Hills, monday and Real World wednesday, which i missed tonight cuz of work :-( And other times we just all end up in the kitchen and talk for a while. Its as much as I hate to say this, better then when jen lived here. I never saw Jen...I see these people and talked to them and I like it!
This weekend I went home friday i bassically thought i was dying because I am very allergic to my dads house because of smoke and dogs, umm but when i woke up saturday besides the headache and the still groggy feeling from all the drugs i took i felt better. We had a whole lot of people over and had crabs and wings and yadayada. BUT it was so much fun, i feel like a grown up now, lol I enjoy talking to my dads friends now, mostly because im not so shy and i like my dads friends, but also cuz i'm more on the same level. But my friends came too, lets see Denise was there for a while, Anna, Terri Jeff Ashes Rachel and friend, and Sami and Staci. I didnt get to talk to them all that much because there was so much going on but i did get to visit some. And Sam and Staci were the last ones there so i got to talk to them a lot and I havent seen staci since we graduated and i hadn't talked to her for a least a year before that. we were never really friends but shes a good person. One of my dads friends daughter Nicole was there and she also graduated with us, and i was never really in the same crowd as her in high school but i m around her a lot when im home and shes fun and ridiculous. And my dad ya know cares less about alcohol and i made everyone drinks and such and i was doing shots with Nicole and my dad and other people, good times. And then there was Dawn, one of Reds friends from work. She was DRUNK and i have spent a lot of time with her and never seen her drunk and it was funny...well til she decided she was driving home. But there was no stopping her and she made it okay so thats good. My "uncle" dan was there. I like him but the man is out of control sometimes. for example he made Denise a drink New Years and Denise doesnt do alcohol that well and she got sick, well she was on my couch curled up and he came over and picked her up by her feet and shook her! Then she threw up...wonder why? HAHA a lot of people remember that and were saying stuff to Denise all night, she goes to me "Im never gonna live that down am I?" not as long as she comes to my house.
Hmmm so what else is happening in my life...
I gained weight back. Which is kind of stressing me. If you dont like it fix it... I know I know, i'm working on it.
Im still after 2 years trying to decide how i feel about being away from home. And mainly it depends on where i am. When im home i really dont want to leave, *specially after this weekend* and when im here im okay with going home but don't feel like i need to be home. I still miss home a lot tho, and the plan is still if this semester doesn't go well to move in with Emy and transfer.
I really dont have too much in my life to complain about. It hasn't gone exactly as I had planned but at the same time there hasnt been any catastrophic event causing me pain. Which by the way I am very thankful for.
Ya know i think ill start with the good news
My dad is finally getting married! Yess hes only been engaged for like 6 years. They were going to get married in Florida but they couldnt find a way for me to get there and stay for more then a few hours so that wasn't going to work. SO they are going to get married in OC so that I can go. Which of course is perfectly fine with me! Honestly i dont think i would have been that hurt if i wasnt there. I always wanted their wedding to be in our backyard tho.
9/5 yes it is taking me multiple days to actually write a few paragraphs. I still have that headache its not helping
other good news a friend of my is pregnant. which if it was any one else would be bad news but I am fully confidant is her abilities to be a mother at this time. Actually I am excited. Haha probably way more then she is for good reason.
School Update...5 classes 17credits right now. May be adding another 2 credit tomorrow. As every other first month of school my entire life I am both fully confident in my abilities to handle the classes and hating them at the same time, mostly because they bore me. Well not all of them this year. Biological Basis of Behavior and Developmental Disabilities can keep my interest pretty well, i know this by my notes compared to my doodles for each day and well Digital Design + Layout right now we are doing lame stuff but i think it'll get better and more useful soon. Anatomy is stuff i kinda know/should remember from high school and isn't that exciting but I really want to know it I think it will be helpful in my career and just in life in general. And I'm only taking Psyc and Science cuz I have to. Its about how to do research and stuff which im not all that interested in but have to know. And the class I might add is Bioterrorism, I met the teacher today he said he wants a psyc major in his class and it only meets once a week for two hours and doesn't sound that hard, and itll knock out some more of those electives so I might do it i'm still deciding. The combination of any two of these classes is probably more work then I had last semester, but this semester I am more capable of handling it for many reasons, including its Fall and I do better in fall. lol.
Work update. During the summer, work sucked but it wasnt as bad as it is now...i dont know what happened but i have contemplated walking out and quitting on more then one occasion. I wanna quit so bad, I think 4 years is long enough. I just need to find another job, and im trying just no luck yet. YET
But on to the rest of my life. After I wrote the last entry about not having a life, Drew, Will and The roommates moved in! I now *when i am not at school or work* have a life. The week before school it was because of Drew and Will and Rudi and them because i partied with them basically every night. It was fun, I miss that. But it is now due to the roommates! I love my roommates. Kim was here a week early so we got to know each other and shes awesome and I knew Cloe and Megan before...Kinda. they are both nice and actually different then i thought which is good. We have roommate bonding for the Hills, monday and Real World wednesday, which i missed tonight cuz of work :-( And other times we just all end up in the kitchen and talk for a while. Its as much as I hate to say this, better then when jen lived here. I never saw Jen...I see these people and talked to them and I like it!
This weekend I went home friday i bassically thought i was dying because I am very allergic to my dads house because of smoke and dogs, umm but when i woke up saturday besides the headache and the still groggy feeling from all the drugs i took i felt better. We had a whole lot of people over and had crabs and wings and yadayada. BUT it was so much fun, i feel like a grown up now, lol I enjoy talking to my dads friends now, mostly because im not so shy and i like my dads friends, but also cuz i'm more on the same level. But my friends came too, lets see Denise was there for a while, Anna, Terri Jeff Ashes Rachel and friend, and Sami and Staci. I didnt get to talk to them all that much because there was so much going on but i did get to visit some. And Sam and Staci were the last ones there so i got to talk to them a lot and I havent seen staci since we graduated and i hadn't talked to her for a least a year before that. we were never really friends but shes a good person. One of my dads friends daughter Nicole was there and she also graduated with us, and i was never really in the same crowd as her in high school but i m around her a lot when im home and shes fun and ridiculous. And my dad ya know cares less about alcohol and i made everyone drinks and such and i was doing shots with Nicole and my dad and other people, good times. And then there was Dawn, one of Reds friends from work. She was DRUNK and i have spent a lot of time with her and never seen her drunk and it was funny...well til she decided she was driving home. But there was no stopping her and she made it okay so thats good. My "uncle" dan was there. I like him but the man is out of control sometimes. for example he made Denise a drink New Years and Denise doesnt do alcohol that well and she got sick, well she was on my couch curled up and he came over and picked her up by her feet and shook her! Then she threw up...wonder why? HAHA a lot of people remember that and were saying stuff to Denise all night, she goes to me "Im never gonna live that down am I?" not as long as she comes to my house.
Hmmm so what else is happening in my life...
I gained weight back. Which is kind of stressing me. If you dont like it fix it... I know I know, i'm working on it.
Im still after 2 years trying to decide how i feel about being away from home. And mainly it depends on where i am. When im home i really dont want to leave, *specially after this weekend* and when im here im okay with going home but don't feel like i need to be home. I still miss home a lot tho, and the plan is still if this semester doesn't go well to move in with Emy and transfer.
I really dont have too much in my life to complain about. It hasn't gone exactly as I had planned but at the same time there hasnt been any catastrophic event causing me pain. Which by the way I am very thankful for.