6/26/2007
I've finally realized what my biggest problem is...I care way too much about others and what they choose to do. I let other people control my life. I let other people's decisions and mistakes affect me. From this day on, I'm done caring. I'm done trying to be that guy that is nice to everyone, that tries to get everyone to like him. I've been doing that since I came to college, and all it's ever gotten me was a group of people who use me and then pretend like I'm not around when they don't need anything. I'm the most important person in my life, and what I want is going to be all I care about from now on. I'm done caring about other people, all it's ever caused me was pain and drama, and those are two emotional states I'm done dealing with.
More importantly I'm done thinking that I'm going to find the girl of my dreams. No such woman exists. I've spent years looking, thousands thinking I had found the one, and untold countless hours fuming when I finally figured out how mistaken I had been. I've just got no respect for any of the women I know or encounter. I don't know who is to blame, but every girl I know, is just a slut. A mindless, go out and drink too much, hang around classless men, fuck the biggest asshole in the room, and then wonder why the next day he doesn't want anything to do with you, you stupid whore! I can never understand why women place their faith and trust in the hands of those who neither merit, nor long wish to hold such a position, but I know that I'm done caring...
More importantly I'm done thinking that I'm going to find the girl of my dreams. No such woman exists. I've spent years looking, thousands thinking I had found the one, and untold countless hours fuming when I finally figured out how mistaken I had been. I've just got no respect for any of the women I know or encounter. I don't know who is to blame, but every girl I know, is just a slut. A mindless, go out and drink too much, hang around classless men, fuck the biggest asshole in the room, and then wonder why the next day he doesn't want anything to do with you, you stupid whore! I can never understand why women place their faith and trust in the hands of those who neither merit, nor long wish to hold such a position, but I know that I'm done caring...