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wow, this is my first update in a while. I've just been in a lot of pain lately, i'm going back to feeling alone, I really need some prayer, it's driving me crazy. I know that tomorrow i'm not going to school, i'm not going to see any of my friends, unfortunately, I tried to hang out with my friends tonight, but I felt bad all night. I just feel like a leech around them, like none of them want me there sometimes, It really hurts sometimes, but I know there not doing anything wrong, it's me, and I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm just weird. I'm sorry everyone about pushing the birthday thing, i'm just excited, I'm not being serious about buying me things, I knew for a fact that no one would of actually done it, that's why i said it. Please don't be mad at me. I'm starting to really just want to be gone sometimes, just not have to deal with anything. My mom told me that she's tired of me, and that I need to start looking for a place to live. She's kicking me out, and I have no idea what I'm going to do.