competitiveness ? jealousy ? what ?
ranting about stuff (╥_╥)
I don't usually put any effort into looking good for college of course I make sure I look not awful but that's it most of the time cuz I believe that I'm a natural beauty xD
but I do sometimes wake up feeling good & I do put in an effort change my everyday hairstyle to something else & yes even wear accessories anyway .. the days I look ordinary everything's fine but once I enhance my appearance a certain someone tries to hint that it doesn't look good on me or that I can't walk in heals or that my earrings are tacky or anything to criticize how I look or suggest that I shouldn't look good cuz it doesn't fit me ..this person isn't exactly a fashion icon herself & whenever she tells me something like that my response is that she should stop cuz she wouldn't like what I have to say about her look...this is ridiculous but we're close & I know she doesn't have any bit of confidence & she's always telling us that and that she gets hurt from comments about her looks which makes me wonder if she finds criticism about her looks so very offensive why does she keep trying to put me down when I'm feeling good about myself? I'm not saying that I'm a bombshell & that she's super jealous of my perfection but she's driving me to think about it.
this happens a lot too when one of our teachers tell me that I'm the best in class & that they're gonna give me extra marks she always gets kinda upset and tries to get the same from them cuz apparently she thinks that our academic levels are the same
I hate this ..what should I call it ? competitiveness ? jealousy ?
that's why I hope she doesn't choose to major in MIS next year cuz I don't want to go through this anymore
and no talking to her about it is not an option cuz she has that victim mentality and she'll be all like :
really really hope she won't get in MIS with me cuz I have no more energy to put with her & help her with studying too ... yes she's family there's no way out of it
it's not that I hate her or anything I just hate this part of her