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im not in the best of spirits this week. i have not been doing too well all around. so if anyone has been trying to get ahold of me, reach me, this is my apology to you. i've been real sick, and i'm sorry i havent been around much. plus, the last 2 days have been the hardest i've had to deal with for a long time...
in love, you say and do things that you would normally not do. you give you word, tell them you'll love them until the end of time. but when the relationship is over, when all is said and done,do you still stick by your word? do you still do all the little things you said youwere going to do for them? ie, lets say........ you have to go to san diego for a photo shoot, and your plans included them. well, as of now, it's officially over, no more trying... do you still take them!? i mean, if they were going out of town, and before you broke it off you said you'd watch thier dog, but now it's over, do you still watch the dog?
and considering that now it's over, why doesn't the other person take into consideration that it's too hard, too difficult to be around. the memory of them hurts. the places you went together, the house, everything just burns inside. it's a virtual slap in the face... 'hey guess what, you're a loser now, i'm fucking someone else, but, here is the bed we slept in. here is the kitchen table we ate at, the mirror where you used to watch me get dressed every morning...... have fun while i'm out of town.' i dont need the memory anymore. i dont need the reminder. but why cant that person take that into consideration? am i going against my 'word'? giving someone your word is golden. it's a bond of trust. but in this case, is it ok to break it? i mean, the dog watching thing is just an example. i'm too tired to think of any other ones.
i'm getting all faklempt. new topic, road island. niether a road nor an island. discuss amongst yourselves.
ok, that was a A.D.D moment. this is an open question, and if anyone would like to give some REAL advice, i would love to read it. no anonymous posts, and blah blah blah. a call to my friends to help me if they so want to...
