Update.
So, anyways. Lemme just update my very few readers on whats been up. First off. Sorry, for not talking to any of you lately. dont feel left out, i havent even talked to my best friends either. I was on a journey to find myself by myself. without the need to depend on people. That was my problem, i couldnt solve anything by myself. I would always seek advice and shit.
Anyways. Thursday my ex came over. and we talked. and u know for a bit i thought hmm.. you know maybe things would get back to normal!! i really wanted to be with her.. she was a cool kid. but. she lied... about everything. i dont even think that girl loves me anymore. (its ok. i dont think i love her either. atleast thats what im feeling right now this very second. it varies throughout the day.) but yeah. it was all lies. i mean.. what kind of a girl goes over ur house and stuff and has an in depth conversation with you.. and then doesnt call you for FOUR days? oh but wait. here's the funny part. she called me yesturday. and she sounded happy...? and i think she expected me to be happy too... but Hello. kid, you havent talked to me in four days... you havent been there for me at ALL!!!
DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPEND? no. of course not. ur never there. my dad is in the hospital, he'll get better. thats all you need to know.
anyways, so now my mom knows i smoke, and she knows i cut. but shes cool about it. i mean. pretty soon i'll feel numb to everything again. cant wait. but she said i can get tattoos, cuz they hurt but they atleast express urself. so... im getting doves on my chest... if u look on my myspace they are there. and then im getting something on my arm to cover the "supposed to be stitched" scars. ah well. its gonna look cool.
working at sears is intense! but this girl kim that works there is adorable. she works in toys. but she hangs in my dept. sometimes. so its cool.
anyways, once again. my life is in a complete uproar. oh well.
i have my old friend back. =)
Anyways. Thursday my ex came over. and we talked. and u know for a bit i thought hmm.. you know maybe things would get back to normal!! i really wanted to be with her.. she was a cool kid. but. she lied... about everything. i dont even think that girl loves me anymore. (its ok. i dont think i love her either. atleast thats what im feeling right now this very second. it varies throughout the day.) but yeah. it was all lies. i mean.. what kind of a girl goes over ur house and stuff and has an in depth conversation with you.. and then doesnt call you for FOUR days? oh but wait. here's the funny part. she called me yesturday. and she sounded happy...? and i think she expected me to be happy too... but Hello. kid, you havent talked to me in four days... you havent been there for me at ALL!!!
DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPEND? no. of course not. ur never there. my dad is in the hospital, he'll get better. thats all you need to know.
anyways, so now my mom knows i smoke, and she knows i cut. but shes cool about it. i mean. pretty soon i'll feel numb to everything again. cant wait. but she said i can get tattoos, cuz they hurt but they atleast express urself. so... im getting doves on my chest... if u look on my myspace they are there. and then im getting something on my arm to cover the "supposed to be stitched" scars. ah well. its gonna look cool.
working at sears is intense! but this girl kim that works there is adorable. she works in toys. but she hangs in my dept. sometimes. so its cool.
anyways, once again. my life is in a complete uproar. oh well.
i have my old friend back. =)