Wow.... Bad Times.
Damn.... im having like some really shitty times lately.... dont worry im not high in this one. i think i gave up on my search for love. ide rather let it find me. if that happens cool if not whatever i wont die from it. so yeah... like.. 2 days ago my brother got into an accident... =( imagine coming home from work tired and seeing a totalled car being pulled into the driveway. i was so scared i just burst crying right there, its my brother you know... hes been there for me sooo much! i cryed so hard the areas around my eyes were bruised (i guess some blood veins popped or sumthin from the pressure) and like... that was a bad day in itself... and like.. not i have dropped out of school... too many death threats for my moms liking. i dont know what is peoples problems with me... i dont do anything to start shit and they start shit. i dont even talk to anyone. its horrible really. but what can i do? nothing. im probably gonna do my GED or American Academy or sum shiz... but im not going back to school. fuck that... people suck dick. anyways. im starting MDC in the fall most likely... i have no idea what i wanna get into. i guess it came sooner then i thought so ima have to think quickly. something fun and that i can set my mind too. im just happy im out of school. i mean either way i was failing.. i havent been to any classes in like 2 weeks.. ide skip the whole day and play magic or yu gi oh... yeah nerd so what? (selling my yu gi oh deck by the way.. if any of u have little brothers or sisters or relatives who are interested ^_^) but yeah w.e im just glad im out... ima switch my schedule at work today.. cuz theres no point in working those times if im not gonna be in school.. i wanna get moved to the mornings and stuff... would be WAY better. the one good thing that happend isnt even all that great... its that my uncle came back from the army. but he brought his girlfriend so its like.. he's always with her and shit... i guess we all grow up and move on from the old times.. but you know i miss him and shit.... he was like a second father to me. and like a father to my brother... but its gotten to the point where my brother doesnt care if he's here or not.. and i dont really much either as long as hes ok im happy... just sucks we never hang out or anything. everytime hes here he is never with us... =(.... damn... my life has changed so much its crazy when i look back and remember the old times... when i was still just a kid and stuff... with no cares in the world, but being happy. and then to a week ago where i was scared of being jumped in school and hating every person there and like wanting to leave and shit. im glad i left . there is no way im going back to school... -ever- not social school anyways. i cant wait to go to college... show my mom my true potential. because in regular school u get caught in the drama and forget to do homework and stuff. but now i can do it.. and i will do it.. and ill pass everything with high grades and make her happy.. because thats all i want.. to make my family happy and those friends who i have left... hopefully me and ulysses can start talking again... he was a good friend. you know? and like.. i make new friends too sometimes.. like real friends. those who will be there for u and listen. those are great. i love you all. <3
sometimes i wish life would go back to before... but i know it never will. so for those memories. I Love You, Always. and you know that.
sometimes i wish life would go back to before... but i know it never will. so for those memories. I Love You, Always. and you know that.