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I don't understand the human mind. mine or anyone elses. I don't understand "crazy" or how it happens or why. Part of me likes to blame it on the person, but I know its not true. It's just easier to assign blame like that. I don't understand how in the span of 8 months someone's personality and train of thoughts can change so drastically. I don't see how they can let one small thing change all that, even though I know its not them letting it happen. I just happens.
I don't know what my role in this should be. I try to keep my mom sane, give her something to be proud of and someone to depend on while my sister is falling apart. I don't know if I should volunteer to go back home and help. Or just go home more frequently. I don't know if I can help. My mom tells me its not my job to, but that doesn't me I wouldn't be doing some good being there. I know my mom is so stressed out and angry and upset and miserable and probably as confused as I am. She's always had or helped me get to the right answers for me. But I don't think any of us know what is the right answer now or how to get there.
I just don't know what to do.
I don't know what my role in this should be. I try to keep my mom sane, give her something to be proud of and someone to depend on while my sister is falling apart. I don't know if I should volunteer to go back home and help. Or just go home more frequently. I don't know if I can help. My mom tells me its not my job to, but that doesn't me I wouldn't be doing some good being there. I know my mom is so stressed out and angry and upset and miserable and probably as confused as I am. She's always had or helped me get to the right answers for me. But I don't think any of us know what is the right answer now or how to get there.
I just don't know what to do.